Have you ever used tinder or anything like that and just thought to yourself well shit if I can get with anyone from here its basically it haha. I've started to come to the realization that maybe I won't date again. It seems like a scary concept and it kinda sucks cuz I see the girls on here and I'm like damn why cant I ask a girl like this out haha but I guess that's why haha idk if I'm setting my standards high or whatever or what. But I'm basically almost done with looking. I mean I find girls attractive and beautiful but I find its more and more on an emotional level. I mean yeah a girl can look sexy and hot but lately I've been really only interested a girls personality and who they are as a person. I mean show me a honest ,caring, down to earth, music loving, sports loving, chill chick and I'll be all over that shit haha. Like I said in earlier posts, I'm a down to earth dude. I don't ask for much and don't need much really. Maybe that's why I'm so fixated on my love life. Its the only thing that I'm missing really. I've got good friends and family. I got a good job that supports me and my grandma. I have my own apartment and car. But the only thing I'm missing I guess is that special someone haha. I guess this is the part of the blog where youre thinking that hey your a independt dude that don't need no women hahaha and yeah I guess youre right but is it so bad to want someone? I've always been around people. I don't really like being alone but I'm always alone really and that is what really depressing. Like I'm not sad but I'm not happy I'm jus like men haha I can't really explain it. What I can explain is how long its been since I've talked to a girl and genuinely felt happy or anything. I mean I gave a honest shot to every girl I talk to. But it never pans out. I mean why can't it be like high school where you find acute girl and you talk all day learning everything about each other and going on dates and shit haha man I miss that. Now its like lets go clubbing and partying when I'm like let's go look at the stars or go to a small diner or something. But I guess I'm too "simple" for people I mean I don't see what's wrong with little stuff haha it doesn't have to be super crazy all the time. Like no drama no nothing hahh thats basically what you get from me. A honest dude who will support you care for you and hopefully learn to love you haha if you like this inquire within... Haha but on a serious note, this has been eating at me this past weeks. Its all I've been thinking about latley. I feel like I'm missing something...
