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How odd to walk these halls again....

Nov 11, 2013
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I am so not the man I was when I left this place all those years ago. I am a different person. This profile is that of a stranger. Someone who didn't know what he was doing or where he was going. How my out look to life, the world, love had changed. My photography had evolved into something more mature. Into serious topics about being alive, living with depression, sexuality, morality. Honour.

How jarring it is to see my old self so open with my feelings. So vulnerable....

so desperate to be needed, searching to find acknowledgement by being loved by someone.. I'm not the same person I was then. I have grown in some ways but in others died a little. It was perhaps the only way to survive then. Lost the little ways that made me me to those that knew me. So how bitter-sweet it is me to come back just for the day to look over the ashes of my past. It feels like almost returning to my old house, Untouched by time.

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adelina:
You are really cute. And thanks for sharing this. I immediately went to check how long ago you were here, and the last journal entry was in 2011. It made me giggle. I apologize. I was expecting at least 5-6 years ago. But a lot can happen in a couple years, (hell, even a couple weeks) I guess. One person's "long, long ago" is another person's "just yesterday." xo
Nov 12, 2013
mangaduck:
It feels like a life time. Like I had lived an entire life and died here. Only to be reborn anew, living another, totally different life. Coming across the diary of someone who could have been me.
Nov 19, 2013

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