mangaduck

Man I have had a bad Xmas. Most of it probably my own doing.

I just moved into my new house with all the stress that is involved in that. I've taken on far too much work for the Xmas period too.
My computer crashed and I nearly lost all my recent photograhic projects. I saved the file and rebuilt my PC. I then found out that all my RAW photo files are slowly being corrupted one by one. Including the back ups. My Photos are precious to me and they are slipping through my fingers.

I had a huge arguement with my parents on Xmas Eve, dropped my garage door on my car and then found my phone was not working. As I just moved into a new place I had no phone and no internet. I was stuck all alone. I was in a bad place. My other half needed me and I couldn't be there for her. I felt so bad.

I was late to my other halfs Xmas Lunch, she was annoyed (righty so) at me and I left that afternoon on bad terms. I never made it to my family Xmas dinner. I feel bad that I ruined Xmas for all my loved ones.

Someone pulled out on me while I was driving on Boxing day. I swerved and smashed into a wall. The other person drove off. My insurance is not fully comp and as the person responsible drove off I have to repair my car myself. Its already cost my 330 just to get it out of the police pound.

I have upset and put my GF through a lot this holiday. I wish I could go back and do it all differently. I can only hope she will forgive me. Even last night she tried to give me advice and I got upset. I am stressed and depressed and unable to handle anything at the moment, but I don't want to be seen as making excuses. I only want to say,

I am sorry.