mandees

Tonight while walking I saw my first lightning bug of the summer. I thought how cool it was to be a kid, chasing them and putting them in jars, and I just smiled, at the simple times. I just want my life to be simple. No fights with friends, and everyone gets along, no matter what they think of each other, I however, know this is not possible and am trying to have this happen, but I know in my heart it will not.

So I have this friend who I have not talked to in over a year. Recently we started talking again, I invited her to go see Incubus with me I LOVE THEM and being as the boy will not go, and my current BFF is stuck up her boyfriends ass, who else is going to go with me.. so I asked her... I am just so conflicted- the boy hates this girl.

Back Story Short Version:
My bday last year she got real drunk and went off on the boy.. and yes called him the N word, I know she did it out of love, concern for me, but the way she did it was wrong.

I understand his side and why he doesn't like her. I however, miss her.. miss hanging out with people who are my age, I want to go have fun hang at bars be goofy etc. I don't do that now, cuz I feel like a housewife sometimes, or like if I go do anything w/o him I will be chastized.

I also am thinking maybe my friendship with her as a test of my relationship with him. Kind of like, If I can get over you being a felon, you can get over my friendship to her or anyone else. What do you guys think?

I just have alot to rant about....

I had orientation for my classes in the Fall... it was awesome. I just can't wait for a change of pace. No more full time job... to be a "kid" again. This where i am going to leave off for now..