Well I guess it's not really the end of freedom, but my free time will be more limited after today. The boat gets back soon and I'll pretty much be down there working every day until we leave. I'll be working most weekends too, which sucks a bit, but I guess I'll finally be able to say I served some purpose over the weekend, none of this sitting on my ass all weekend long bullshit.
I just got back from seattle, ran into my mom over there at tower records and we had an early dinner at the Pike's Pub. It was alright I suppose, it was good to sit down and talk about shit. I'm thinking about selling my truck, but I'm not really sure how I wanna go about it. I know everytime I go home my dad always makes some comment about my "pretty truck", so I'm guessing since he's been wanting to shed himself of his old explorer, that he'd like a pretty truck. I wouldn't mind selling my truck, it would sorta stay in the family which would be great. I just don't know what I would replace it with. In all honesty if I had a choice I'd keep the truck and get another car, I just can't afford all that. I suppose with the way gas prices are going up and with how much I actually use the truck to move shit, I'd be better off with a smaller car. I'm not sure what to get though.
Mom thinks I need to get some religion back in my life. It's so hard to tell your parents the reason you gave up on religion.....especially when going to church was a family event every sunday. Near the end I was just going because I liked spending the time with my family, not that I really believed what I was hearing there. It's just so hard. On one note I think there is some sort of god out there, but I don't think it's the kind of god that they tell us it is. I mean the view of god has changed so much since he was originally "invented" it leads me to believe that the idea of god it a vision of what man wants him to believe. And since people going to church are looking to the preacher to tell them of the good deal they are getting, which instantly gives him power over them, that vision of god is whatever he wants it to be. I could be the pope saying jesus liked blonde chicks and everyone would probably believe it to some point. I know that's a shitty analogy, but I'm trying to make a point. Think back five hundred years, or even a hundred years. God was all about hell fire and brimstone, and if you did anything against the church you were a heathen and forbidden from heaven. I always like thinking about the indigenous tribes of 3rd world countries or the jungles of africa and south america. They haven't heard of jesus before, but according to some people that's no excuse. They'll whip out John 3:16 any time. Personally I can't follow a religion that casts out people in the case of ignorance. I am a spiritual person, and from time to time I do try to talk to whatever entity is out there. But for the sake of being "luke warm", I think maybe I'll just ride it out and see what waits for us at the end. I am a good person, I always try to do the good thing, the best thing. I am not saying I am righteous, but I am not damned either. I'm done babbling now.
I just got back from seattle, ran into my mom over there at tower records and we had an early dinner at the Pike's Pub. It was alright I suppose, it was good to sit down and talk about shit. I'm thinking about selling my truck, but I'm not really sure how I wanna go about it. I know everytime I go home my dad always makes some comment about my "pretty truck", so I'm guessing since he's been wanting to shed himself of his old explorer, that he'd like a pretty truck. I wouldn't mind selling my truck, it would sorta stay in the family which would be great. I just don't know what I would replace it with. In all honesty if I had a choice I'd keep the truck and get another car, I just can't afford all that. I suppose with the way gas prices are going up and with how much I actually use the truck to move shit, I'd be better off with a smaller car. I'm not sure what to get though.
Mom thinks I need to get some religion back in my life. It's so hard to tell your parents the reason you gave up on religion.....especially when going to church was a family event every sunday. Near the end I was just going because I liked spending the time with my family, not that I really believed what I was hearing there. It's just so hard. On one note I think there is some sort of god out there, but I don't think it's the kind of god that they tell us it is. I mean the view of god has changed so much since he was originally "invented" it leads me to believe that the idea of god it a vision of what man wants him to believe. And since people going to church are looking to the preacher to tell them of the good deal they are getting, which instantly gives him power over them, that vision of god is whatever he wants it to be. I could be the pope saying jesus liked blonde chicks and everyone would probably believe it to some point. I know that's a shitty analogy, but I'm trying to make a point. Think back five hundred years, or even a hundred years. God was all about hell fire and brimstone, and if you did anything against the church you were a heathen and forbidden from heaven. I always like thinking about the indigenous tribes of 3rd world countries or the jungles of africa and south america. They haven't heard of jesus before, but according to some people that's no excuse. They'll whip out John 3:16 any time. Personally I can't follow a religion that casts out people in the case of ignorance. I am a spiritual person, and from time to time I do try to talk to whatever entity is out there. But for the sake of being "luke warm", I think maybe I'll just ride it out and see what waits for us at the end. I am a good person, I always try to do the good thing, the best thing. I am not saying I am righteous, but I am not damned either. I'm done babbling now.
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Dedication is such a serious word. It's saturday, i'm not sure how i feel about serious words
[Edited on Apr 09, 2005 10:17AM]