manchester_black

It's strange the things you remember about your life when you just let things drift. I remember guilts long past at transgressions long forgotten by the wronged parties. I remember waiting for my mom to finish making 'snow blocks' for us to play with, because I didn't really know what they were. She came inside and was taking us out somewhere, and I went out and couldn't find them and karate chopped some hard chunks of snow that wer lifted from the driveway. When my mom came out, she told me I just broke the snow blocks, and left it at that as we went out. I still feel guilty about that to this day. I remember playing a rented nintendo game and trying to beat it before it had to be returned. I remember I was almost at the end boss, and was in a really tough part and my brother said something and I yelled at him for making me die. He was encouraging me and I yelled at him for it- I still feel bad about that. I remember the speeches my principal used to give me when I got in trouble, and how he said the way I was acting was like driving a yugo when you had a ferrari in your garage. It was a comment about all theis potential that I had that I was wasting... I remember he was always nice to me and was always fair with his punishments. I remember he brought me a cupcake a student had brought in for their birthday and had given to the office staff, and he tole me if he rolled a yahtzee I could get out of an in school suspension half a day early. I remember thatt I didnt like it when I found out he was leaving for another school. This journal entry is making me remember lots of things... like a floodgate of sorts. I'll just leave things as they are now.
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