mana

A while back I stopped smiling and laughing in public. I realized it made me look retarded, just like deaf people attempting to speak are retarded too. They get these weirdly pitched voices and their mumbled words don't make one bit of sense. That being said, I wish I fell in love with a deaf beautiful boy.

I don't think I'll ever be happy, which in truth is the best foundation for finding happiness, just like when you lose your keys and you don't give a fuck. That's when you find them.

I had a dream where I fucked a hot guy and he came inside me in a hurry and then I wanted me even more, but he turned me down and I got pissed off and he felt bad, but his dick just wouldn't erect.

Now,can someone tell me why that shit happends??

If I had written this entry on a public computer in a library or something, I wouldn't have been smiling just now. Here, in the confined space of my cosy bed-sit I can smile as much as I want. And as I do just that, I feel like touching myself. But I don't because I think God is watching. Hah?

To all the boys that have seen me naked. Please come back, one at a time, and I'll deplore and marry one of you. I promise.

On a sunny day, I'll take your pride.