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Wednesday Sep 15, 2004

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I think I'm an emotional masochist. I miss having nightmares. Partly because I miss the Adrenaline rush. But mostly because nightmares are a link to parts of yourself that you normally suppress. How can you know who you really are if you don't know what you're afraid of?
What I write here isn't who I am. This diary consists only of small inconsequential anecdotes and ideas that I put up so that I will seem interesting or funny to an audience that I've never met and in all likelyhood never will meet.

Perhaps there isn't any real me. If there is anything this diary tells about me, it is who I want to be, and what kind of person I want my anonymous and undentified readers to believe that I am. For the reasons above, maybe that will also give me some answers as to who I really am.

I'm gonna try to be myself again

whatever


Btw I love the beautiful Boygeorgeismymom love love love
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jcup:
I do find a meaning behind them, and that helps me make decisions, changes, or basicly understand myself alot better. It's allways a positive thing because I learn from myself. Does that make sense. It's like a selfhealing mechanism. If Im insecure about something or fear something then I can try to overcome it. Sounds corny but that's why I love anylizing them.
Sep 15, 2004
jcup:
Yeah I've read a ton of psych books and dream books. I mostly find out what they mean by figuring out how I felt during them than what actually happened. And I figure what the things in the dream represent for me. Dreams are more about feelings and symbolism than what actually happens. Sorry to fill your journal. Im embarrassed now, so I digress.
Sep 15, 2004

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