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QuietMan


Lago Vista sun
shine sharped teeth
He was bleeding the rainbow
and I was setting stones
Chasing Horses
and only dreaming
they could fly

Perpetuate
in losing.

That night i thought about her.
I watched you fuck yourself up
Even offering me a taste of your ruin.

The fire burned in their hands
Beat me into transience
Beautiful bodies
Skin and silhouettes
Bodies of bodies of
water of sky of
expanse.

This was your world.
Your unreality.

I kept myself awake
I caught the Lago Vista sun
stood
right
there
where the edge met the end.

All these years i've kept telling myself you weren't real.
That you never stole anything from me
I've tried to forget that it was you who slipped into unconscienceness holding my hand
and were always right there when i came back to life.
breathing
and undying
and beautiful.

Real because
you were always so filled with everything i could not stand
everything that angered
invigorated
inspired
shook me down
and lifted me

Do you remember how you would cry
from seeing the slightest change in the shade of my skin?
Do you remember how i held you
even when you tore right through me?

I know you do, because you won't let me go.
Every day i feel you pulling towards me and away from me
I loved you and i let you go.
Love me, and let me go.

Happy Belated Birthday you fucking angel.
Remember,
I set your spirit on fire.
Don't you ever fucking forget it.