malina

We shall find out soon enough how real your faith is while beside your fate, and soon you shall find it is not wise to attack what or who you lie in fear of.

different count... 20 days til the beginning of 4th of july weekend..


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awwwww... I found an old love letter I wrote to my baby,champ111485... its so sweet, and cute, and sappy... awww now I have to post it in here....


Nicholas,



ever since you left this last time, all that I have wanted to do is cry. I don't want to be without you now or ever. it hurts knowing how far away you are, and knowing that i can't be there with you. everytime I think of you, I realize that I love you just a little bit more. I don't know how it is possible, but I do.

but, I know that no matter how far apart we are, nothing can or will ever change the love that we have for each other. it is there in our hearts, and will be forever.

everytime that i hear your voice, everytime that I have seen your face, the times that you have made love to me --- nothing can ever replace any of that.

knowing that you love me gives me the desire to continue going through the hard times as well as the times when I wonder why we even bother with all the shit we are forced to deal with on a daily basis.

sometimes I sit just looking up at the stars at night, remembering how wonderful it felt to be in your arms. my heart and soul ache knowing that it could be quite awhile before I am able to experience such pure bliss again.

it is not fair that we can not be with each other.

but, we do what we must. and someday, I know that we shall be together forever.

there is nothing more that I want in life to be with you, and be your wife, and the mother of our children. there is nothing that could ever compare.

you touch my heart ... each and every day
you bring a smile to my face ... with all that you do and say
it feels so wonderful ... just knowing that you are mine

you've touched my heart .. my thoughts .. my dreams ..
you've changed my life
I let you into my heart
you're there without a question or doubt
whether there's laughter or tears

throughout everyday, my thougts are always of you

I MISS YOU

you make me so happy
I couldn't ask for more.

you truly mean the world to me
it is plain for all to see
I am constantly thinking of you
and all the little things that you do

I LOVE YOU

you are my number one
and always will be
I can't wait to look into your eyes again
give you a kiss... and a hug... and then
tell you once more...

that...

I LOVE YOU

only to you does my heart belong
I know that our love could never be wrong
one do soon we will together
our heart as one..

now..

and..

FOREVER


you're the thought that starts each morning
the conclusion to each day
you are in all that i do
and everything I say

you're the smile on my face
and the twinkle in my eyes
the warmth inside my heart
the fullness in my life

you're the hand holding mine
and the strength inside of me

my bestfriend
my lover

my shoulder to lean on
when I need to cry

you're the ever constant joy in my life
the voice that makes me weak
the happiness of everday

YOU are all that I need
YOU are all that I want
YOU are all that YOU need to be

you're there for me when I need a kind word
the way you say my name makes me smile
you share my hopes .. my dreams .. my fears..

I can't promise you that dark clouds will never hover over our lives, or that the future will bring us many rainbows. I can't promise you that tomorrow will be perfect, or that life will be easy. I can promise you my everlasting devotion, my loyalty, my respect, and my unconditional love for a lifetime to come, and many more. I can promise that I'll always be there for you, to listen and to hold your hand, and I will always do my best to make you happy, and to make you feel loved. I can promise that I'll see you through any crisis, and hope with you, dream with you, build with you, cheer you on, and encourage you. I can promise you that I'll share my dreams, my world, and every aspect of my life with you. I'll willingly be your protector, your advisor, your counselor, your friend, your family, your everything. and I believe that that is what love is truly about.


I love You
Always and Forever
Ashley