malice

Things that I enjoy doing aren't nearly as appreciated now as they would be if I had to wait for them. Now I have the option to do whatever I want, whenever I want. I'm so bored!
I guess that having a job gives you something to get sick of so that you don't get sick of the fun things. Now everything just doesn't seem as exciting.
I just got my new meds today, they work extremely well...but I have nothing to use this on. I feel like I'm wasting my time...all I crave right now is something new, to learn something new, do something new.
I just dread going into yet another crappy job. I'm so hesitant to go in that direction again because of how useless I feel in those types of jobs. I'm not contributing anything to society out of preparing food, other that making people fat. I'm certainly not contributing to my own well being by getting treated like crap on a daily basis.

I'm stuck.