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malicatsz

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I'm back!

Jan 20, 2016
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Hey everyone! I wanted to take a few minutes to say sorry that I was gone for so long!

A lot of things have been going on in my life lately, most of it not so great ahahaha. So I was busy and in love because I was building a house on a 5 acre piece of land with the love of my life, with our adorable dog Odie (aka Odieliscious, aka Odie wan Kenobe)

As it turns out, my man had developed a dependence to the harder drugs in life and became rather aggressive..

I was at the end of my cord, completely burnt out with the crazy hours at the salon where I worked, and the construction, eventually things got worse and darker..

I suffered a very bad concussion.. I spent 2 days alone bleeding from my head because, well, my man had left me there like that basically..

I lost my job because of the concussion, and my apartment because I couldn't pay for it without a job, and I couldn't remember who I was most the time.. Heck I was barely able to stay awake longer than 2h straight. I was alone and I slept in parks during the day (don't worry I always had a friends place to crash at night).. It took 3 months before I could finally see a doctor and get a neurological exam done..

So I did a lot of physiotherapy, the concussion happened on father's day the 21rst of June 2015, so I've come a long way. I am getting stronger and feeling better albeit a bit broken and broken hearted nonetheless. I never would have imagined it turning out this way, but it's for the better that we are no longer together. I do love being alive. Do that was an easy choice to make.

My body had suffered quite a bit.. Some things I will now have to deal with till the end of days (yeah because that was my third concussion no less ahahahaaa) but my spirit is starting to get stronger and I'm more motivated than ever to get back to modeling and living an adventure filled life.

No doubt I will have a career change to make because, having 3 concussions makes for a less energetic person.. Also strong emotions and stress set off horrible skull crushing headaches/migraines.

So I am turning towards the beautiful world of plants. There is nothing that makes me feel better than to lose myself in the peace and quiet of tending to my lovely fellow photosynthesising friends.

Now I got to build myself a new plan, see what options are available to me. Now that I no longer have a home of my own I figured it would be time for me to study abroad, go learn about medical plants in south America or some grand adventure of the sort! Maybe become a Shaman's apprentice ahahahaa!

Thank you for your patience and I am soso glad to be back! Feels good to be with you guys again!

Much love <3

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malicatsz:
Thank you so much for your encouragement guys! It hasn't been easy, but if you want the things you're looking at to change, then you gotta change the way you look at things, right? So I remind myself to stay positive every day! We gotta remember from where we started and all the progress we have made! Love you all xxx
Jan 23, 2016
quorocker:
Survivor!!!
Mar 3, 2016

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