maleficentmoi

note to self.. keep the brows!!! yeah.. i kinda figured its a dont buy anyone a gift unless you talk about it first.. your kids are the only ones that you should have to shop for.. and that said.. i feel like an ass cause a good friend bought me a gift and i havent the money to buy her something back.. bah!

Jesus... humm.. ill ask him how he feels about having his bday so close to mine.. must be awkward for him!

Bwahaha, thanks for the testimonial.

No you didn't.

Deliciously zen even ?

My blog wasn't intended to kick anyone down. I used to have a ton of empathy until I moved to the city. Since then, I've had homeless people spit on me, throw papers at me, curse me out, and one man even tried assaulting me. I used to give my change out whenever I could, because nobody in this city gives a damn about their fellow man. And do you know what happened? I bought a man a sandwich from the deli once, and he didn't even say thank you. In fact, he complained that he didn't like turkey. Another man got mad that I gave him food and didn't give him money. Another cursed me out because I'm a non-smoker and I didn't have any cigarettes to give him. Another started screaming in my face because he admitted he wanted money for beer and I wouldn't give it to him because he was obviously already drunk and in poor health. And even still, I talked to one homeless man for over an hour just to give him someone to talk to, he told me he was a failed artist and I gave him some paper and pens from my art kit to draw with. At first it seemed I'd finally gotten through to someone, but then in the end he tried getting me to have sex with him and I realized the whole conversation had been one long booty call.

So you see, I have a lot of reasons to be bitter. Yes, I'm well aware that their situation contributes to their behavior. I'm sure I would be angry too if I didn't have a place to live and it seemed like nobody gave a damn about me. But the fact of the matter is, I tried giving a damn and I can only take so much abuse before I start to become sour. Why should I let myself be mistreated for something that is not even my fault?

I try my best to empathize with everyone that I can, but being mistreated the way I have over and over again, I've finally lost my patience. Perhaps the next time you read a blog entry like mine and jump to conclusions about my character, you should try to empathize with everyone, and not just the person who is obviously down on their luck. I would never "kick somebody down" without good reason.

And besides...when was the last time a complete stranger got in your face and called you degrading names? Believe it or not, that really hurts ones feelings.

I was just coming here to say thanks for your words in my last blog entry. Sorry to hear that you feel like no one is listening to you Though a blog really should be for yourself, not others

I am not much of a school person. I try and barely scrape by with C's. I did get a new job in a part of town I like... so thanks for your words.

Oh. OK then. I shall leave you with "the witches hammer!"
And if you ever want to blog again j, I shall read