I really should update..so I am..
the play was awesome..and..shit I'll go to a play with anyone..feel free to invite me...it was that cool...I want to see such things time and again ohh ..umm..im little hammered right now um and..well.
Work is work..Im with a easy crew..its such a skate job..its all easy peasy...
I want to get used to waking ..then im going to...
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the play was awesome..and..shit I'll go to a play with anyone..feel free to invite me...it was that cool...I want to see such things time and again ohh ..umm..im little hammered right now um and..well.
Work is work..Im with a easy crew..its such a skate job..its all easy peasy...
I want to get used to waking ..then im going to...
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Called back to work for Monday coming up. Just as I was giving up. I going to start back on the path to getting my EMT cert. I want some kind of back up in my life .
Someone asked me to go see Grindhouse.. so Im going to see that tonigh, coolness.
She makes me nervous though..like she just a little to good looking...
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Someone asked me to go see Grindhouse.. so Im going to see that tonigh, coolness.
She makes me nervous though..like she just a little to good looking...
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infinity:
you should got for the EMT certification, it's a great backup to have. still good to hear that work has called you back in. that will help get life going again.
misskristin:
yay for marry poppins!
Thanks for that video.. I don't like the song, but the video is really nice, so I will add it to my Zen.
<3
xox
Thanks for that video.. I don't like the song, but the video is really nice, so I will add it to my Zen.
<3
xox
Well that was the last Show at Club Deep in Asbury Park. its was rough going for me at first..But someone smart told me to breathe and it would be ok..and I did and it was.
I ran into some people I dint really want to see..but it turned out ok. I also ran into some old pals that I haven't seen since last summer...
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I ran into some people I dint really want to see..but it turned out ok. I also ran into some old pals that I haven't seen since last summer...
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applejugs:
some times you just think you're going crazy... when you suspect that to be the case, the only thing to do is to document it.
frost:
yah, i can only IMAGINE what you would say...so it probally is best to keep your mouth shut! haha! pussy...come on, say it! i aint SCRRD!

I'm really trying to get my life together,right now I'm tripping and stumbling along but I'm gonna get it.
For me.
I think I learned long ago you can't change yourself for someone else and make it work..at least it never worked for me.
My little hearts been a roller coaster..Up and down and twisted in circles to the point I want to puke just...
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For me.
I think I learned long ago you can't change yourself for someone else and make it work..at least it never worked for me.
My little hearts been a roller coaster..Up and down and twisted in circles to the point I want to puke just...
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frost:
sorry i had to leave, but my computer wouldnt pick up the signal again...stupid thing!
infinity:
it's really when people get caught up in emotions that decisions can be made that arent really the best. it's hard to realize this while it's happening, it's not until the end that you really can realize that what you did was either wrong or the right thing to do. and the next time it's still equally difficult to see coming again. emotions are a tricky thing, hard to manage sometimes and they can really mess with life. but other emotions mess with life in a good way. still nevertheless it's the bad that we tend to emphasize and that is what is thought about, for those tend to have a longer lasting effect that goes deeper. it is really only when the emotional cloudiness is lifted that we can realize what really happened, and move on...
Going to the Philly zoo this week and hitting a few museums .I've been wanting to do that for a while Then really soon after that I want to go see a play or a musical .
I want to make my life better. Do more see more..stop being such a hermit.
I need to get drinking to excess under control..I'm tired of not knowing...
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I want to make my life better. Do more see more..stop being such a hermit.
I need to get drinking to excess under control..I'm tired of not knowing...
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infinity:
the philly museums i went to while i was there were really nice. i've only been to philly twice, so it's still really a city that i dont know all that well.
not getting totally blasted every time you go out drinking is how things ought to be, youll need to do what you have to do to make sure that happens.
and finally, the way i see it is that everyone is always going to be a work in progress. people never stop learning and growing mentally so long as they are alive. way i see it is that recognizing that you have the ability to make change in your life is key, because once you know you have that ability, you can use it to make your life into what you want it to be.
not getting totally blasted every time you go out drinking is how things ought to be, youll need to do what you have to do to make sure that happens.
and finally, the way i see it is that everyone is always going to be a work in progress. people never stop learning and growing mentally so long as they are alive. way i see it is that recognizing that you have the ability to make change in your life is key, because once you know you have that ability, you can use it to make your life into what you want it to be.
alzy:
Ooh! That sounds like a great idea. I love going to museums and just sitting and writing for hours. What museums are you going to?
Feeling lost and adrift.. Unsure of the future or who I even am anymore. Somehow I've lost myself. Somewhere along the way, I've become a little void.Shedding no light, taking in what comes along.And its pretty unattractive.
Go Go Emocore Powers activate.
I need to get out of this fucking rut.
I know im not worthless...But I just feel like a fighter thats taken one...
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Go Go Emocore Powers activate.
I need to get out of this fucking rut.
I know im not worthless...But I just feel like a fighter thats taken one...
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derceto:
hope you are doing ok man
erin has my number if you need someone to talk to......

erin has my number if you need someone to talk to......
infinity:
you know i was feeling very much the same way, since i had an interview today [as a requirement for myself and everyone else to be allowed to continue with pharmacy school in the fall], and that really did make me think. made me kinda wonder about why i am where i am and if i really want to be. when they ask you why you want to be a pharmacist and you tell them that it's because you want to work in the pharmaceutical industry, that automatically gets you in a little situation. problem is that the program i am in is clearly geared towards practicing pharmacy [as are all the similar ones in the US], so this does raise important problems. in some cases additional work is required in order to get the foot in the door and get a job in industry [i've already got that covered], and they basically told me that [as basically a disclaimer on their part - so i cant come bitching to them if i dont get a job right off the bat]. then they reminded me that a good part of the classes i'll be taking over one year wont be of much use, to which i disagreed. still frustrating nevertheless to see that the school almost doesnt want people to go into industrial work, although those are valid points that were brought up.
oddly enough i stopped and thought about it and realized that the same can be said of even people who go into practice post graduation. then i realized that perhaps this all is a load of bull. and yes it certainly is sometimes, a lot of what anyone learns in school never comes up again.
though for me a good contributor to these feelings was that i am under some tight deadlines to get things done, and that made me pretty stressed out. ive got it all done since then but still for a good while i was in an awful mood.
oddly enough i stopped and thought about it and realized that the same can be said of even people who go into practice post graduation. then i realized that perhaps this all is a load of bull. and yes it certainly is sometimes, a lot of what anyone learns in school never comes up again.
though for me a good contributor to these feelings was that i am under some tight deadlines to get things done, and that made me pretty stressed out. ive got it all done since then but still for a good while i was in an awful mood.
Not much going on. Besides trying to get my head back on straight.
Its fucking hard to do the right thing sometimes, and it sucks when you really care for someone ..but you just know you cant be with that person.
On top of all of that making someone cry fucking breaks my heart.
How can ones heart and head disagree so much?
Im pretty...
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Its fucking hard to do the right thing sometimes, and it sucks when you really care for someone ..but you just know you cant be with that person.
On top of all of that making someone cry fucking breaks my heart.
How can ones heart and head disagree so much?
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infinity:
hope you can get going again with work soon. the training is probably going to be nothing short of a very fun time.
alzy:
Definately see the number 23 and 300. Both are great. Haven't seen zodiac yet.
The horror convention was pretty cool..Monster squad cast was there...saw 3 cast..crispen glover..
I signed up to be in a zombie movie..
I got pretty shitty drinking everclear and blue coolaid out of a 5 gal gas can..haha
Right now im reading I Am Legend by Richard Matheson. good stuff.
Edited to add : holy shit just finished the story..fucking awesome ending. if you have...
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I signed up to be in a zombie movie..
I got pretty shitty drinking everclear and blue coolaid out of a 5 gal gas can..haha
Right now im reading I Am Legend by Richard Matheson. good stuff.
Edited to add : holy shit just finished the story..fucking awesome ending. if you have...
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frost:
you rock....FYI.
frankie:
thanks so much for the lovely comment on my new set xxxx
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prospera:
yeah i am going to have to get thrifty. we have this HUGE thrift store around us but oh my god a HUGE thrift store is chaos. it's going to take so much effort.
prospera:
aw thanks 

Im starting to feel better.
I can feel the ties that bound my heart to her slipping away and I feel loss..but not so much pain.
Im thinking of things to better myself instead of dwelling on what was lost. And that in itself is making me feel better.
I hope she's happy with someone else I wish her no ill will.With her moving on...
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I can feel the ties that bound my heart to her slipping away and I feel loss..but not so much pain.
Im thinking of things to better myself instead of dwelling on what was lost. And that in itself is making me feel better.
I hope she's happy with someone else I wish her no ill will.With her moving on...
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mydogfarted:
You whiny, emo fag. Want some Midol for those cramps little girl?
Relationships suck, even good ones. Have fun, get laid and who knows, maybe find someone worth the effort.

Relationships suck, even good ones. Have fun, get laid and who knows, maybe find someone worth the effort.
infinity:
when you're ready, get back into it. you're in a great position to get things going again, and all you need to do it start it back up.
but i did my first set with him.