maladjusted

thanks for the suggestions

you should got for the EMT certification, it's a great backup to have. still good to hear that work has called you back in. that will help get life going again.

yay for marry poppins!
Thanks for that video.. I don't like the song, but the video is really nice, so I will add it to my Zen.
<3
xox

some times you just think you're going crazy... when you suspect that to be the case, the only thing to do is to document it.

it's really when people get caught up in emotions that decisions can be made that arent really the best. it's hard to realize this while it's happening, it's not until the end that you really can realize that what you did was either wrong or the right thing to do. and the next time it's still equally difficult to see coming again. emotions are a tricky thing, hard to manage sometimes and they can really mess with life. but other emotions mess with life in a good way. still nevertheless it's the bad that we tend to emphasize and that is what is thought about, for those tend to have a longer lasting effect that goes deeper. it is really only when the emotional cloudiness is lifted that we can realize what really happened, and move on...

the philly museums i went to while i was there were really nice. i've only been to philly twice, so it's still really a city that i dont know all that well.

not getting totally blasted every time you go out drinking is how things ought to be, youll need to do what you have to do to make sure that happens.


and finally, the way i see it is that everyone is always going to be a work in progress. people never stop learning and growing mentally so long as they are alive. way i see it is that recognizing that you have the ability to make change in your life is key, because once you know you have that ability, you can use it to make your life into what you want it to be.

Ooh! That sounds like a great idea. I love going to museums and just sitting and writing for hours. What museums are you going to?

hope you are doing ok man

erin has my number if you need someone to talk to......

you know i was feeling very much the same way, since i had an interview today [as a requirement for myself and everyone else to be allowed to continue with pharmacy school in the fall], and that really did make me think. made me kinda wonder about why i am where i am and if i really want to be. when they ask you why you want to be a pharmacist and you tell them that it's because you want to work in the pharmaceutical industry, that automatically gets you in a little situation. problem is that the program i am in is clearly geared towards practicing pharmacy [as are all the similar ones in the US], so this does raise important problems. in some cases additional work is required in order to get the foot in the door and get a job in industry [i've already got that covered], and they basically told me that [as basically a disclaimer on their part - so i cant come bitching to them if i dont get a job right off the bat]. then they reminded me that a good part of the classes i'll be taking over one year wont be of much use, to which i disagreed. still frustrating nevertheless to see that the school almost doesnt want people to go into industrial work, although those are valid points that were brought up.

oddly enough i stopped and thought about it and realized that the same can be said of even people who go into practice post graduation. then i realized that perhaps this all is a load of bull. and yes it certainly is sometimes, a lot of what anyone learns in school never comes up again.

though for me a good contributor to these feelings was that i am under some tight deadlines to get things done, and that made me pretty stressed out. ive got it all done since then but still for a good while i was in an awful mood.

hope you can get going again with work soon. the training is probably going to be nothing short of a very fun time.

Definately see the number 23 and 300. Both are great. Haven't seen zodiac yet.

yeah i am going to have to get thrifty. we have this HUGE thrift store around us but oh my god a HUGE thrift store is chaos. it's going to take so much effort.

aw thanks

You whiny, emo fag. Want some Midol for those cramps little girl?

Relationships suck, even good ones. Have fun, get laid and who knows, maybe find someone worth the effort.

when you're ready, get back into it. you're in a great position to get things going again, and all you need to do it start it back up.