Wednesday Mar 21, 2007

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Feeling lost and adrift.. Unsure of the future or who I even am anymore. Somehow I've lost myself. Somewhere along the way, I've become a little void.Shedding no light, taking in what comes along.And its pretty unattractive.
Go Go Emocore Powers activate.
I need to get out of this fucking rut.
I know im not worthless...But I just feel like a fighter thats taken one to many blows to the head in a fight and is just about ready to lay down.
This will pass.
Hugs xoxoxox.
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derceto:
hope you are doing ok man smile

erin has my number if you need someone to talk to......
infinity:
you know i was feeling very much the same way, since i had an interview today [as a requirement for myself and everyone else to be allowed to continue with pharmacy school in the fall], and that really did make me think. made me kinda wonder about why i am where i am and if i really want to be. when they ask you why you want to be a pharmacist and you tell them that it's because you want to work in the pharmaceutical industry, that automatically gets you in a little situation. problem is that the program i am in is clearly geared towards practicing pharmacy [as are all the similar ones in the US], so this does raise important problems. in some cases additional work is required in order to get the foot in the door and get a job in industry [i've already got that covered], and they basically told me that [as basically a disclaimer on their part - so i cant come bitching to them if i dont get a job right off the bat]. then they reminded me that a good part of the classes i'll be taking over one year wont be of much use, to which i disagreed. still frustrating nevertheless to see that the school almost doesnt want people to go into industrial work, although those are valid points that were brought up.

oddly enough i stopped and thought about it and realized that the same can be said of even people who go into practice post graduation. then i realized that perhaps this all is a load of bull. and yes it certainly is sometimes, a lot of what anyone learns in school never comes up again.

though for me a good contributor to these feelings was that i am under some tight deadlines to get things done, and that made me pretty stressed out. ive got it all done since then but still for a good while i was in an awful mood.

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