Ok new blog.
Sadly its not a happy one.
My ex Told me she has feelings for another..this is good and bad.
Do I feel for her ..yes.. am I happy she told me this..Yes.
Why you ask.
because it helps me move on. it lets me close my heart to her.
something I was having trouble doing.
we can be friends later..but right now..I need to heal..god Ive been trying..I hate jumping right into bed with someone else..its so empty and I just wind up thinkink about the person I want to be with..and thats so unfair to the person I have under me.
I dont want any baggage..so Im taking time to get to know me ..I just need to get out more..when I get hurt I tend to close up and off everyone.
Not such a good thing..and only my tried and true friends last through it..
I know Im a hermit asshole..but..Sad just isnt sexy..and I hate being a fake fucker and putting on a happy face.
Ok this is lnger then I wanted..
Night everyone..thanks for ..well just being yourselves.
Sadly its not a happy one.
My ex Told me she has feelings for another..this is good and bad.
Do I feel for her ..yes.. am I happy she told me this..Yes.
Why you ask.
because it helps me move on. it lets me close my heart to her.
something I was having trouble doing.
we can be friends later..but right now..I need to heal..god Ive been trying..I hate jumping right into bed with someone else..its so empty and I just wind up thinkink about the person I want to be with..and thats so unfair to the person I have under me.
I dont want any baggage..so Im taking time to get to know me ..I just need to get out more..when I get hurt I tend to close up and off everyone.
Not such a good thing..and only my tried and true friends last through it..
I know Im a hermit asshole..but..Sad just isnt sexy..and I hate being a fake fucker and putting on a happy face.
Ok this is lnger then I wanted..
Night everyone..thanks for ..well just being yourselves.
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i completely agree with not wanting to fake being happy, i really dont like to fake my mood but i cant help but wonder if im putting on some sort of a false image every day. in some ways i kinda am, but how much exactly...that remains a topic of intense debate in my mind.
it's hard to find people who you know are being honest all the time, sometimes people have their motives and hidden agendas going, and that's bad...