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i got a sunburn......

i'll write more tomorrow.

for now i'll burn in peace.

jeez its been awhile

things have been hectic......

my ex that i broke up with from PA wont leave me alone, he goes from oh i love you so much, to i hate you your a whore. he texts me and calls me non stop.

so i finally went to the police. and they basically said its my fault and i shouldnt have dated him...
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thought you could be different.

but i guess your all the same.

get me to trust you, then fuck it up.

why even bother.

i should just go back to the way i was.

i thought i was in love, but love is just a state of mind thats fleeting.

its not even about you, you weren't that special.

its the betrayal.

you could have...
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Dear asshole number one and two.

I hate you, its been a long time.
I want to be able to have a normal relationship.
Get the fuck out of my head.
I dont want my new relationships fucked up because im messed up by you.
but they will be.
Fucking fuck you.

People just want more out of me then i can give.

this girl ive been talking to, is saying she wants more from me. that we dont hang out enough, and i dont let her know everything im thinking, and im not very affectionate.

Jeez, were not even together. im complicated, i admit that.

i dont like to hug or kiss unless i feel really...
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the only word that can describe how im feeling is low.

Everyone keeps pointing out that ive gained weight, trust me i know. i dont need to be constantly reminded by everyone else. i can tell by the fact that NONE of my clothes fit me. I hate the way i look naked. just when i start to think that maybe its not as bad...
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allergy season is upon us.

I feel bad for my starbucks customers, i keep sneezing. not in the drinks but still, it doesnt look or sound good.

anyone know anything that helps allergies?

so i had an awesome pseudo date with this girl from school.

we ate lunch together.

played scrabble and jenga.

just had fun.

the day before we colored eggs for easter.

shes just as dorky as me.

awesome.

so yesterday i had a lot of fun.

I met up with my friend and we had a late diner at Fridays in times square. We ate, drank, talked about nonsense.Then my ex girlfriend, and her current girlfriend met up with us and we went to see Jumper, which was awesome.

The only thing that bothered me was when we were leaving the theater we...
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I dont know why, but im mad. just mad.

Mad that i still live at home, mad that im so behind in college, mad that i dont make more money, mad that i dont have more friends, mad that no one loves me the way i want, mad that my dogs poop in my house, mad that theres nothing on tv, mad that im overweight,...
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I wish my first blog post was about something better then this. but this is all thats on my mind

I spent 2 years, actually wasted 2 years is more like it, dating this guy.

I helped him get off drugs, bought his kids toys for their birthdays and holidays, tried to help him get his GED, paid for the rent-groceries-bills-everything while he went out...
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