maitressedemence

my life is crap... i quit my job.. i just feel so blah... i can't make myself do anything.. i just want to sleep... so now i don't have any money... me and my guy probably won't be able to get an apartment now cause i'll probably end up having to pay bills with my student loan refund... i'm not gonna be able to go to weight watchers now... i just can't understand why i can't make myself do anything.. i don't consider myself lazy, cause lazy people don't want to do anything.. i do want to have a normal life, i just can't seem to find the motivation or happiness i'm looking for.. i don't expect to find a job that makes me incredibly happy, i just want a job i can tolorate... and when i feel depressed like i do right now, i can hardly tolorate anything..

i figure my b/f will want to leave me soon, almost every guy i've ever dated has broke up with me when i get depressed... i don't blame them, who wants to date someone who can't keep a job, and just wants to sleep all the time...

anyway, i have to go look for a new job now today.. i'll stop whining now