maitressedemence

well, i lasted one week at my job... i quit this morning... i have problems sleeping, and i've been waking up every morning in a panic attack cause i don't sleep at night, plus i didn't like the job, so i just couldn't take it anymore... but on a brighter note, i called my old boss at the ymca and i'm gonna go back to work there... doesn't pay much but it'll do for now... at least now i know i CAN NOT work a morning job... i'm going back to my original plan to go thru the nursing program at my college... and in order to be able to do that, i have to work a part time job in the evenings, cause all the nursing classes are in the afternoons... so i guess i'm just gonna have to deal with working part time and staying with my mom for a little bit longer... at least when i get thru the nursing program i can get a night shift job, i hope... if i even make it thru the program... I'm worried that my boyfriend probably thinks i'm a loser now cause i quit my job.. ive had guys break up with me in the past for stuff like this... they said i had no direction.. well i do have direction, it just changes every 5 minutes... i'm going in a constant left hand turn lol.. anyway, i'd rather keep my sanity than work a job i hate and not sleep...

ok i'm done bitching now..