maineville

So i'm feeling like i'm in a void right now last week i had 3 days back to back of action pack fun meeting old friends and meeting new people loving life and just enjoying how i'm making a step toward a new way in my life till when i got home sat at 1 in the morning my grandmother has passed away she raised me for 10 of my years when my father was missing she was my best friend and it hurts so bad to see that she is gone. I went to her house and it was weird being in her house without her saying oh here is my favorite grandson i thought i was taking it hard but i saw how my cousin and i were just quiet couldn't talk to each other and then seeing my aunt she took it worst than all of us combined my father was pretty bad too i have never seen him cry till then and i couldn't take it.

I don't know what to do i mean its hard and i know people are like be strong and be strong for your family but what about me how i feel i can't be strong for all of them when all they want is for someone to feel how they feel. I had some of my friends take me out so i started to get my mind of things but it sucks its right before christmas and my cousin and i birthday makes me not want to celebrate my birthday.

Hopefully everyone else is enjoying their remaining time of the year and love the people your around like its your last time never know what is in store for their future be grateful for the times you have with them.