maineville

Alright so life isn't going the way i hoping things will go i'm losing my grandmother to cancer that is in her jaw and i thought she was forever gone on sunday when we got a call that said she was gone but she is in the hospital she had a stroke which i hope that she gets better and they find something that will help her she is the strongest women i know she practically raised me when i was yonger and didn't have a father and anytime she was sick she would still get up and cook and clean and i woudl be like you can't do that your sick and she would say no illness is going to keep me down. She is a great women and grandmother i'm her favorite grandson and just to see her in the hospital scared me so much that i don't want to believe that she isn't going to make it.

I tried to tell my boss i need a day to just gather my thoughts and go down and see her and he tells me that there is nothing you can do she has cancer so you might as well say your goodbyes WTF?! i mean he might as well have said that when he started to tell me his story about his grandfather and how he just passed on everyone said their goodbyes and waited and how he knows there isn't anything that can be done about it weather its true or not show some compassion i have never felt so angry in my life well i have but still that is fucked up to say.

Then to top i go to work and one of my managers is being a jackass i was asking her a question weather it came out smart mouth or not its a question that i wanted an answer too its not like i was trying to be an ass i was asking a question which i didn't understand and she tells me take it up with my boss well you sat there telling me all this shit that you can answer it then when i ask a question why get smart with me god i hate my work.

I've just been super stressed out lately and i really want things to go right or at least in the direction i want it to go in and just seems like nothing is progressing or at least things ar going wrong i don't understand and i need friends that i can trust and rely on just yesterday there was a fire that is right next to my house it was on the news in norco and i got 3 people who actually cared enough to call and ask if everything was ok and if i needed help thank god it didn't get any worst but all i want is decent friends who care people who care and just for the work i put in life at least something goes right or my way.

Well everyone i hope things are going right for everyone else how is everyone else?