Alot has happened in since my last blog ever heard the expression "Sometimes you have to go through the bad to get the good" well i can say it might be true for 7 months i haven't been sleeping right or eating right along with feeling down when i'm alone and just out of it when i get that 1 hour of sleep and it all had to deal with the break up with the one person i love so much.
When she was with me everyone loved her she sparkeled like she was the brightest star in the galaxy then once we broke up people start losing respect for her and she just wasn't the person she was and it took a tole on her she lost her managing positon at our work (which i got her that job) she is so in debt that she never has money to even eat or pay ANY of her bills always asking me for money or her dad and she has the shittiest friends who treat her like a puppet. She recently realized that she isn't the person she use to be along with she feel like i've stood by her side even when she was being extremely rude and cruel to me so we hung out yesterday and she came to my house (now she hasn't been to my house since our breakup) and we half way watched a movie and got into making out and the good stuff afterwards realizing that we are going to try and work on things to see what happens now there are going to be some road bumps ahead one including her best friend who doesn't want me in the picture and the fact that we work together we can't show affection at work which we are going to have to keep to a silence so thats is one issue that is going on in my lfe.
The other is the fact taht my mother has been stressing me out with all these test to see where my level is in school what i do know or where i should be at now she realizies that i'm alot smarter than i put on to be she took me for some average kid that she thought that wasn't going to want to do anything in life but i proved her wrong its just i've always been so into wanting to know things from experiences that i wasn't really instrested in putting my head in the books i mean if i put my mind to it i can pretty much do anything i want just never was motivated to actually keep at it just wanted to do other things but i showed her i can do it and that she doesn't have to treat my little sister like she is the gifted child that she has another just wants to live a normal life that now my sister wants to do but is also being pushed to do things she isn't all that intrested in doing.
My friend told me to stop worrying cause it seems like i'm always trying to take on the world maybe she is right i should just take on things one at a time but with that being said i will work harder than i ever have to obtain what i want out of life hopefully experience things i couldn't before i know i have great friends but to know everyone would be even greater for me thats one of my goals I also gotta save up money to actually buy me a camera one of my friends took alot of pictures of me and i want to upload them but i can never get a hold of her so hopefully when i do everyone can see some of the new pictures.
So is it hot this summer or its just me? Whats everyone else experiencing in their life?
When she was with me everyone loved her she sparkeled like she was the brightest star in the galaxy then once we broke up people start losing respect for her and she just wasn't the person she was and it took a tole on her she lost her managing positon at our work (which i got her that job) she is so in debt that she never has money to even eat or pay ANY of her bills always asking me for money or her dad and she has the shittiest friends who treat her like a puppet. She recently realized that she isn't the person she use to be along with she feel like i've stood by her side even when she was being extremely rude and cruel to me so we hung out yesterday and she came to my house (now she hasn't been to my house since our breakup) and we half way watched a movie and got into making out and the good stuff afterwards realizing that we are going to try and work on things to see what happens now there are going to be some road bumps ahead one including her best friend who doesn't want me in the picture and the fact that we work together we can't show affection at work which we are going to have to keep to a silence so thats is one issue that is going on in my lfe.
The other is the fact taht my mother has been stressing me out with all these test to see where my level is in school what i do know or where i should be at now she realizies that i'm alot smarter than i put on to be she took me for some average kid that she thought that wasn't going to want to do anything in life but i proved her wrong its just i've always been so into wanting to know things from experiences that i wasn't really instrested in putting my head in the books i mean if i put my mind to it i can pretty much do anything i want just never was motivated to actually keep at it just wanted to do other things but i showed her i can do it and that she doesn't have to treat my little sister like she is the gifted child that she has another just wants to live a normal life that now my sister wants to do but is also being pushed to do things she isn't all that intrested in doing.
My friend told me to stop worrying cause it seems like i'm always trying to take on the world maybe she is right i should just take on things one at a time but with that being said i will work harder than i ever have to obtain what i want out of life hopefully experience things i couldn't before i know i have great friends but to know everyone would be even greater for me thats one of my goals I also gotta save up money to actually buy me a camera one of my friends took alot of pictures of me and i want to upload them but i can never get a hold of her so hopefully when i do everyone can see some of the new pictures.
So is it hot this summer or its just me? Whats everyone else experiencing in their life?
freesia:
I have...he sucks at getting in touch. I think i've let that flame go out. But its ok...Im happy being single...Just wondering why I cant be happy with someone.Thank you for the advice 