maineville

Alright so i'm a little confused on life itself i'm sure all the signs are there but i'm just not looking at thing correctly. Well things at work are going decent i'm driving again so i got my car back well at least my grandfathers truck to get out of the house i'm going nuts just staying in the house. So i've decided to move out i don't know if i had mentioned that before but i'm moving out i can't be at home especially if i'm paying all the bills in the house and still have to find my own way of getting food and what not i might as well have my own place if that is going to be the case so i found 2 roomates well one is a friend and a volenteer which happens to be my recent ex well i still love her and everyone is saying why have her move in with you first she works with you now she is moving in whats next is she going to go to school with you too and be in all classes?! Well thats a little over dramatic to me at least idk sucks because feels like a roller coster with her i suppose my reason for her being with me in the same house is because i can have a better eye on her rather than her running off lying to her parents she was never a liar now since she has became friends with her so call "Wifey" things haven't been looking so good for her she is always tired and lack of energy and just border line a zombie but when she is around me she finds energy and wants to hang with me and does what it takes to be around me just she isn't telling her "Wifey" everything we are doing. Thats where i'm confused at also she speaks that we aren't together but why does her father txt me saying i'm doing a good job keep up the good work and remember win her heart don't rush things and she goes through my phone and freaks out checks all my txts to people i don't understand her is it because she wants me to believe there is no chance of us getting back together when she clearely wants to or she just isn't ready for me to move on? Hmph i'm confused so much when it comes to her i really love her and to me feel that this is the girl i want to be with only because of the happiness i feel when i'm around her i never look at the negative things even though we both have bad qualities but what i can say that is good about us out weights the bad idk.

Maybe i need to date other women just to see how her reaction will be any takers?

Lol well besides her things are looking upbeat school is looking good work i'm making money and i can finially leave the house now the only thing i want at this point is to learn how to play a song on my gutar well better get practicing or else it will never happen.