Its been a week since i wrote an update on my blog well things are finially looking up i guess all my keeping positive have finially gotten me to the place where i wanted. 
Well lets start off but my ex she is being cool with me for three months we were not talking because of our break up she pretended i didn't exist (we work together) so we had a good talk saying its harder to ingore someone than it is to give in to our feelings. Well we are cool now talking i think she has a hidden agenda of trying to work her way back into my life but you know what i want her to realize i'm not a fool i do love her don't get me wrong but there are things i'm still not cool with right now and i want us to work on it.
Could it be wrong that i still want to experience more of thing before i get back with her? I mean i do love her and i want her back i've been fighting for my relationship back for 3 months and its finially here where i can show the real me romantically but i mean before i settle down with her i want to be sure i don't do anything i will regret i have never cheated in my relationships and i don't want to have that temptations later on in life so is it wrong for me to want to experience more before getting back with her or should i just concentrate on getting my relationship back and don't worry about what comes along just as long as i'm faithful?
Hard choices i would never hurt her just i don't want anything bad to happen. Thats one of my good news is i'm making progress with her the other is i got my best friend back well i suppose she is alittle different now that how i use to know her but maybe things might getting better the longer we hang out.
So martial arts i'm really improving at and trying really hard in my gutar lesson just if only i can sleep normal now correct me if i'm wrong but my current ex and i have been getting one hour sleep since our break up and we both aren't eating and last night see text me saying she was in pain now i told her to take meds and rest but she insisted that nothing worked so as a joke i said i could play doctor and make her feel better *wink wink* well she said she will greately consider that offer. WTF what does that mean now i asked all my female friends and they told me that she wants me back just can't come out and say it are they right or is it just me asking to much? I don't know but i'm still happy things are looking up for me i'm going to keep staying positive and looking foward to greater things.
But seriously what should i do concentrate on getting my relationship back or experience what i can now and let things ride for a while till she comes back by admitting she wants me back i need help please
Well lets start off but my ex she is being cool with me for three months we were not talking because of our break up she pretended i didn't exist (we work together) so we had a good talk saying its harder to ingore someone than it is to give in to our feelings. Well we are cool now talking i think she has a hidden agenda of trying to work her way back into my life but you know what i want her to realize i'm not a fool i do love her don't get me wrong but there are things i'm still not cool with right now and i want us to work on it.
Could it be wrong that i still want to experience more of thing before i get back with her? I mean i do love her and i want her back i've been fighting for my relationship back for 3 months and its finially here where i can show the real me romantically but i mean before i settle down with her i want to be sure i don't do anything i will regret i have never cheated in my relationships and i don't want to have that temptations later on in life so is it wrong for me to want to experience more before getting back with her or should i just concentrate on getting my relationship back and don't worry about what comes along just as long as i'm faithful?
Hard choices i would never hurt her just i don't want anything bad to happen. Thats one of my good news is i'm making progress with her the other is i got my best friend back well i suppose she is alittle different now that how i use to know her but maybe things might getting better the longer we hang out.
So martial arts i'm really improving at and trying really hard in my gutar lesson just if only i can sleep normal now correct me if i'm wrong but my current ex and i have been getting one hour sleep since our break up and we both aren't eating and last night see text me saying she was in pain now i told her to take meds and rest but she insisted that nothing worked so as a joke i said i could play doctor and make her feel better *wink wink* well she said she will greately consider that offer. WTF what does that mean now i asked all my female friends and they told me that she wants me back just can't come out and say it are they right or is it just me asking to much? I don't know but i'm still happy things are looking up for me i'm going to keep staying positive and looking foward to greater things.
But seriously what should i do concentrate on getting my relationship back or experience what i can now and let things ride for a while till she comes back by admitting she wants me back i need help please
Never cheat yourself darlin'. Life's far too precious to waste!
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