maineville

So i'm alittle worried i got my check up from the doctors and well the good news is i out grew my asthma which i guess should be a good sign but then found out that i have weak lungs and a weak heart. My breathing level is way below the average human my lungs aren't expanding enough for me to breath so its as if i'm always struggling for air no matter what which brings me to my condition at night where i stop breathing in the middle of my sleep. At first i thought that was bad but then to hear that i have heart problems now i'm only 23 but i guess its possible since i've been in and out of the hospital since i was little for my breathing problems and chest pains. When i was 19 i was told i would have heart problems later on but i was 19 i didn't think it was possible for me to have them so i thought if i can work on my breathing problem then eventually i wouldn't have any heart problems makes sense well at least i thought.


So then yesterday i woke up fine till i got to work and started to feel really light headed my stomach was acting up and i was having chest pains. Now i am a delivery driver at pizza hut and i went on a couple delieveries and pulled to the side of the road and thats when it happened i thew up. Now i thought it would get better but then i kept throwing up all day. I'm starting to get scared wondering whats actually going on i'm suppose to go in for another check up in a couple days i'm just hoping that it isn't bad.

I just find it funny when i told my ex's dad (cause he works with me and dosen't want me to stop trying for his daughter again) that i wasn't going to see him at work and told him i was sick his reply was "Oh shit you better not get sick can't have it so i will see you tomorrow just relax and don't get sick" now at first i was laughing but then i was like how can i stop myself from not getting sick i mean i do take care of myself but i can't stop myself from being sick. I know he means well and i saw him today i felt alot better when everyone at work was nice and wants to check up on me after their shifts. But even still i'm worried about my health i've always lived my life to the fullest did all the fun things i mean i know there is more to live i need to experience but i still feel that i lost the one thing that was important to me now everyone says get over my ex she screwed me over and i can find someone better but i feel like i should get the best now who knows what will happen tomorrow i mean the world isn't promised to you. When i was with her i felt that i shouldn't have a care in the world what i would do just to be in love again