maineville

Ok so i came to relaization that i'm officially done. I can't keep jumping through hoops for my ex because she wants to feel like good about herself forget that i'm done i've done enough jumping through hoops just to be with her for 3 years. I gave up my friends and everything i stood for just to be with her and i get a big hey fuck you in the end well fuck that. She checks up on me 4 million times a day just to see what the hell i am doing just so she can be like oh he isn't looking for anyone else he still wants me back fuck that realistically i once thought of a future with her but until this crap made me realize who i am and who you really are a person who has no life who wants to remain at a shitty ass job that don't want anything more for themselves so you settle for what you know ha i got better things to do than to remain at a fuckin job i want a career and a women who respects me and dosen't want me to change they will like me for me. Just to think i thought i lost all my friends then the moment they heard what she did they came to support me and rebuild me i do admit realistically this break up destroyed me everything i stood for and what i stood for to other people now i have to regain what i can back and make new fragments of myself. I'm done with this whole situation lol from this day foward i'm going to be positive and hope that miss right comes along hope thats soon though lol.


What i can be proud of is that i'm actually back in school and back in martial arts along with playing my gutar that i've been wanting to learn how to play for years so i would say its a start to keep busy but still being home alone makes me think about her and i don't want that so i need more things to do that way i'm always doing something to keep busy.