I'd like to make this a little more positive than negative but let's see how it goes.
Starting modelling I was so naive, thinking it would be amazing for me to be part of the 'scene' and to make new friends, visit new places and just be generally happy.
Well it is that, mixed with everything else. I guess sometimes I get the feeling like people let me down more and more. When things are planned but something better comes along for them I always think to myself 'why am I not good enough?'
I now understand it's not just me who has these feelings. It's sad to see how thousands of girls look down on themselves because to be honest, me along with all of those girls cannot handle the criticism.
I'd like to think of myself as a somewhat optimistic person, but when I have time alone to think it always comes down to 'why do I not look like her?' 'Why is everyone having fun and yet Im sat alone once again'
When will we ever be happy just being. (If that ever could happen)
Sorry if this isn't the happiest thing to hear on a Sunday.
Thanks for listening.
