magnusopum

I'm wondering what the world feels like when it's not dulled by painkillers. Nothing seems to have gone right since the pain started and now that I can't feel anything all I seem to do is cause other people pain.

I don't know whether I'm still trying my hardest or if I'm back to how I was months ago being selfish and argumentative. I'm also starting to regret some decisions based on the fact that, as usual, some people just take advantage. But then it's all about me being an arsehole when I won't stand for it - when I get angry - when I'm made to feel like the gimp.

All I want is that person breathing gently next to me on top of the covers... trying to cool down