Maybe this is a good time to start blogging again.
I can't express how happy it has been for me to go back and look at my old posts. I don't know why this is except to say that I probably really benefited from this community.
Now I'm in a situation where I am not seeking as much from SG. It provides me with the most casual of chit chat, and pretty boobies to look at. I'm still friends with many of the people I met from when I was more active and by that I mean more than "friends" in the online friending meaning, but I haven't been interested in meeting the new people. Simultaneously I hadn't been trying to meet new people at all so I guess that is part of it. Last year I got back in the game of finding partners, relying mostly on a pool of people my age. SG is a younger crowd (mostly) so I didn't figure it would mesh.
For instance I was discovering bisexual group sex, with this guy 7 years older than me. He didn't look it, and man does he always have a date every week, but I figured younger women wouldn't be comfortable in this party so I never tried.
What was also happening was that I started going to UC Berkeley for an undergraduate degree last semester. I already knew that no one but no one properly guesses my age by the correct decade, often missing by a decade and a half even. For you online people it is another story since you get to see up front what my expiration date is, but in real life (in so far as college is real life) I am basically flirted with, and prospected, regularly by women that aren't even legal to drink yet. So last semester I had been thinking a lot about whether or not I wanted go along with this attention or not.
Am I going to be considered deceitful in the way that transgendered people are considered deceitful when they "pass" well enough to create desire?
Do I have extra responsibilities because I have so much more experience in things only acquired over time like long term relationships and knowledge of cultivated passion and reciprocity?
I still don't know for sure, but in my second semester, I have decided it couldn't hurt to find out. I've slowly started responding to some of these women and I guess that makes me want to blog.
This is my weird but wonderful college experience..much delayed but full of opportunities all the same. Why wouldn't want a record of it, with or without, the college aged women? Their attention is just the icing..and as far as I still know or don't know may spoil all too quickly in the light of day.
What I do know is that this is just awesome..beyond any middle life crisis fantasy.
I can't express how happy it has been for me to go back and look at my old posts. I don't know why this is except to say that I probably really benefited from this community.
Now I'm in a situation where I am not seeking as much from SG. It provides me with the most casual of chit chat, and pretty boobies to look at. I'm still friends with many of the people I met from when I was more active and by that I mean more than "friends" in the online friending meaning, but I haven't been interested in meeting the new people. Simultaneously I hadn't been trying to meet new people at all so I guess that is part of it. Last year I got back in the game of finding partners, relying mostly on a pool of people my age. SG is a younger crowd (mostly) so I didn't figure it would mesh.
For instance I was discovering bisexual group sex, with this guy 7 years older than me. He didn't look it, and man does he always have a date every week, but I figured younger women wouldn't be comfortable in this party so I never tried.
What was also happening was that I started going to UC Berkeley for an undergraduate degree last semester. I already knew that no one but no one properly guesses my age by the correct decade, often missing by a decade and a half even. For you online people it is another story since you get to see up front what my expiration date is, but in real life (in so far as college is real life) I am basically flirted with, and prospected, regularly by women that aren't even legal to drink yet. So last semester I had been thinking a lot about whether or not I wanted go along with this attention or not.
Am I going to be considered deceitful in the way that transgendered people are considered deceitful when they "pass" well enough to create desire?
Do I have extra responsibilities because I have so much more experience in things only acquired over time like long term relationships and knowledge of cultivated passion and reciprocity?
I still don't know for sure, but in my second semester, I have decided it couldn't hurt to find out. I've slowly started responding to some of these women and I guess that makes me want to blog.
This is my weird but wonderful college experience..much delayed but full of opportunities all the same. Why wouldn't want a record of it, with or without, the college aged women? Their attention is just the icing..and as far as I still know or don't know may spoil all too quickly in the light of day.
What I do know is that this is just awesome..beyond any middle life crisis fantasy.
heartbaker:
