magnadolce

I hate lovers.
I hate the way
they go to the bathroom
in shifts
after they've fucked.

What do you think about when you're lonely?

-Insides







I remember borrowing a few CD's from my friend Justin when I lived in Atlanta. One of them was called "Insides" and the album was called "Euphoria." At the time (1996) it seemed really different to me. The closest thing I had heard to that kind of music was The Cocteau Twins because I was a straight up rock fan by then. Anyway, I was just digging around in my old tape bin today and found the copy that I had made of that Insides album.
It's really cool. I had all but forgotten about it. I remember being kinda lonely, but not really unhappy for a few months when I moved to the other side of the city from where my few friends lived and resided in a room on the second floor of a big old house that was rented out by the owners who lived downstairs. All I did for like 3 months is work, come home and put on that album in my dark room and smoke copious amounts of marijuana...

Then I met a girl.
And then I got to have sex while Insides was playing. That was very cool.

My memories are so much cooler and more fun that my life is now. What a drag.
I miss being somewhere new, unconcerned with the future - "youth" I think is what it's called...

And I fucking miss when WEED did not make me PARANOID!!!

Stupid getting older...