so, no tat yet, but i did get an awesome pair of shoes. there's nothing that makes me happier than some sexy heels sometimes. put up some new pics.
so, apparently i'm going to atlanta tomorrow. i thought we were going friday and saturday but my brother called me and said we should aim to leave at about two tomorrow. dang. i've got a lot of laundry and some homework to do. tonight. dammit.
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buuuut, right now i'm a little two high and a little too disoriented from earlier today's blow to concentrate on that. what blow you ask? no, not cocaine and no, not a punch. it felt like it though. remember my best friend / big time crush who lives 600 hundred miles away from me? the one who kissed me on new year's and blew my world apart? the one who broke my heart when he chose his girlfriend over me? yeah, that one. i saw a picture yesterday that made me think of him, so i posted it on his wall. when i saw his status updates, it said his girlfriend has labeled herself 'single'. what? maybe it's a fluke. today, when he logged in to write on my wall, he changed his status to 'single' too. what?
i'm planning a trip to visit him this summer, so i decided to call him to see if we could start figuring out when would be a good time for both of us. and maybe see if he's say anything about whether or not he'd broken up with his girlfriend... but subtly. only we didn't get to talk about much at all because he was on his way to work.
fuck. just when i thought i was about to get my head on straight about him, he goes and stirs it all up again. every little possibility has run through my head, from big and unrealistic, to small and scary. has he he finally decided he wanted me more and broke up with her so he can be with me, like he should have been for the last four years? has she found out about new year's and dumped him and so now he resents me for it? has he decided neither i nor her are right for him and found another girl altogether? did they break up for some reason completely unrelated to me or other girls, but he just doesn't want me anyway, so i'm getting all riled up just to be broken hearted again?
technology complicated yet another life.
so, apparently i'm going to atlanta tomorrow. i thought we were going friday and saturday but my brother called me and said we should aim to leave at about two tomorrow. dang. i've got a lot of laundry and some homework to do. tonight. dammit.
.....
buuuut, right now i'm a little two high and a little too disoriented from earlier today's blow to concentrate on that. what blow you ask? no, not cocaine and no, not a punch. it felt like it though. remember my best friend / big time crush who lives 600 hundred miles away from me? the one who kissed me on new year's and blew my world apart? the one who broke my heart when he chose his girlfriend over me? yeah, that one. i saw a picture yesterday that made me think of him, so i posted it on his wall. when i saw his status updates, it said his girlfriend has labeled herself 'single'. what? maybe it's a fluke. today, when he logged in to write on my wall, he changed his status to 'single' too. what?
i'm planning a trip to visit him this summer, so i decided to call him to see if we could start figuring out when would be a good time for both of us. and maybe see if he's say anything about whether or not he'd broken up with his girlfriend... but subtly. only we didn't get to talk about much at all because he was on his way to work.
fuck. just when i thought i was about to get my head on straight about him, he goes and stirs it all up again. every little possibility has run through my head, from big and unrealistic, to small and scary. has he he finally decided he wanted me more and broke up with her so he can be with me, like he should have been for the last four years? has she found out about new year's and dumped him and so now he resents me for it? has he decided neither i nor her are right for him and found another girl altogether? did they break up for some reason completely unrelated to me or other girls, but he just doesn't want me anyway, so i'm getting all riled up just to be broken hearted again?
technology complicated yet another life.
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glitch:
good luck with all your boy troubles.....ugh
penn519:
Hey, great pic...hope all goes well in atlanta and with the guy.