maggiezee

so, one more month, and my legal shit will all be settled.
thank christ i made it.

spring break wasn't everything i thought it was gonna be. i had plans for tripping and possibly raving, but it all just fell through and i just ended up drinking a lot. well, a lot for me anyway. it was sort of strange to be in such a party-ridden atmosphere again. i hadn't partied since i found god and started living a better life. i mean, it's not like i'm some straight-laced goody-goody who peers down my nose at kids who're having a good time. i still have fun, i just don't go fucking nuts anymore. the most scandalous moment was when i kissed a gayboy, and of course someone got pictures of it haha. it was fun and harmless though, so i don't care. and it's not like i can get in trouble for it. i'm surprised sometimes at my new will power though, this really hot drunk guy walked up to me at a party and pretty much just asked me to disappear and have some fun, which i would have been all for a few months ago, but i handled it well and told him no. who'd have thought i'd be able to turn down a drunken rendezvous? i had a decent time all week, i just wish i'd had a great time. and i kinda wish i had stayed here. i might have gotten to see my collegeboy. god, who knows what's going on in my head in regards to him. i'll forever be messed up about that boy.

but, speaking of boys, i think things are gonna be alright with ex. i came clean about my erm, transgressions.he was obviously mad at first, and still is a bit, but i think it'll be okay. maybe one day we'll be friends. i think we'd made great friends because any time i was annoyed with him or we had issues it was relationship stuff; like him not trusting me or him not giving me enough space. those issues don't really come up between friends.

i think i'm gonna join a gym today. i've lost a few pounds by eating right, but i miss being in shape. plus, i'm a girl and i'm required to freak out about bathing suit season. i might be going on mad vacations this summer, like the beach and LA and maybe to see my collegeboy, and i wanna feel hot in a bikini. i wanna be confident enough to strut around in a teeny two piece in front of collegeboy and his girlfriend haha. i want to turn fucking heads. i've got a couple of months before summer, so i've got to do something other than diet to achieve that. wish me luck!

alright, it's time to get to it, i didn't take a day off to sit around blogging haha.