i don't really have anything to say, so i don't know why i'm on here. I'm watching MIB but not really because i'm not looking at it and its muted. I'm drinking my Mountain Dew like it's a bottle of Jack Daniel's. I feel like i'm James Van Der Beek in Rules of Attraction. Listening to the cover of Every Breath you take by the Police performed by Copeland and also Every Little Thing she does is magic, performed by Anadivine. I feel like shit because i have a headache...fuck it. I don't know what to do anymore. Nothing excites me anymore. My life is dull and somewhat boring...no cross that out...it is boring. I saw the first girl I ever dated in my life today. Well not the first but the one that was the first serious one of them all. We dated my Junior year I believe. Yah...she was a senior...the older woman! yeah...back then...things were exciting. every night was a good night...even if i went to bed early or right after school...my dreams were good and adventurous. I don't remember my dreams anymore. I know I have them but I don't remember them. oh well nothing i can do i guess. I have the daily set planned out day...no matter what. If i'm in minot its the same everyday. if i'm here...its the same. My life reminds me of one of those commercials you see for that airline that tells you what days are the best to fly due to "low rates", where its all color cordinated and crap. well thats my life. the blue days are the same, and then i move to green for awhile and its the same...but once just once I get one of those yellow days...once a month where things are exciting...and then wouldn't you know it....it gets fuckin delayed. Well i'm running out of my Mountain Dew. Life's a bitch...so bitch slap it. ta ta.

We should find a way to shake things up at least once a week just to try to get out of this routine bordom. But then again, if we make a point to shake things up, wouldn't that just become routine also? Grrr...Have a nice day!