maegunx

Relationships are probably the worst idea anyone could ever have. They make you feel really great and then all of the sudden they're over and all you have is...well nothing. Like you spend 9 months getting to know someone and love someone and then all of the sudden it's over and you've just spent a bunch of time setting yourself up to get hurt. It's like maschosim, you know it going to really hurt in the end but you want them. Some people even go through it with the same person multiple times knowing it's all going to crash and burn like it did the last time.

I think realationships are a more suttle form of self torture...you know in the back of your head that it's more than likly going to end, and end badly, but you still take part in em'(even if you arent conciously thinking it).

I think as far as my relationships go he was the most fun or um....I dunno. He was great and the majority of it was a blast. He's still someone I'll care about and want to be friends with. I knew it was going to end but I guess, I didn't think it'd happen this soon. Oh well, I guess my point to that was I knew it and I knew it was going to suck and I still let it happen.

I think being alone for a little bit might help me in a way I guess....or it was fun while it lasted...or this is for the best...or shit happens...or whatever somewhat optimistic thing I'm say now.



Ill probably hate myself for writing this later but atleast i got to vent now.