maeda

even my kitty has the fall time blahs. he has sat in the same place, all curled up for 3 days now. he only gets up to eat and then he goes right back. he isn't even keeping me company in my room.

so sad
so sad

i am wrecked somehow, all those bad thoughts creeping into my head. i think i shouldn't ever mate with anyone ever again, it is just trouble. i get too attached. i don't even like the last few anymore yet it hurts to think of them even loving anyone else. i don't like how they lied, twisted twisted words. they twisted me
they jilted
and here i still are on my knees to their will.
maybe i just need to cry....maybe i do
and yet i am in love with one soooo close to them
in love with a stranger again
i bet she will twist hard too, i bet she already has.