maeda

i missed my chances with the only boy i ever loved. i am tortured by this.

he was far from perfect but we sure did like each other alot.

i forgot what a pivotal person he was...now he is gone. i get shivers every night when i go to bed. and although i hated how he always had to have the tv on when he went to bed...well...i leave that fucker on all night long now too.

torture torture torture.

forgive me for my depressing post.