maeby

my whole life i thought the biggest victory would be to die a virgin. At 22 i finally gave it up. He was perfect. Well i thought he was. and in a million ways he still is...except...he's addicted to porn. Of all the men in the world of all the good guys out there (and i know there is SOME) i had to get the one that unknowingly set impossible standards for me to meet. no amount of starving myself or making myself puke everything up or adult site making could make me feel better about myself. he still never looked at me the way he looked at them. (i took my site down after it was painfully obvious)
And now im in this debt mess with him. and i want to die. and i'll never get my virginity back. what a dick.
somebody give me drugs or ice cream