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For your consideration.

One of my Learning disabilities: Dyslexia (but everyone is different)

I was Labelled lazy, dumb, careless and immature, "not trying hard enough," or having a "behaviour problem.
If you talk to me and I can seem harsh its because I dont get it. Mostly with written word, so messages on here or in chat.

I don't understand which bit is the joke. The Humour.

If I cant hear your tone of voice I dont understand what you mean.

I constantly think Ive done something wrong. The world of email hates me.

I'm dreadfully dyslexic; ironically I can spell dyslexia and dyslexic. I have a feeling a word may be wrong in this sentence. I might be wrong, I dont know.

I can't hear the sounds a person makes to make up a word, even though my speech extremely good.

I have an IQ of something like 136, I can never remember, hello dyslexia.

My dyslexia means I can't pick up the phone, well I can, but you would have needed to give me detailed reasons to why you are phoning, you might as well had the conversation in person.

I can pick up the phone the first time to My Mother and Fianc.

It takes my dad calling four times for me to pick up, my sister six, my brother 8 and he has to leave me answer-phone message.

I cant spell the word 8

My best friend can only phone on a Thursday between 8pm -9pm, once she on the phone she can stay on for as long as she wants, she must text two days in advance for me to answer.

If I need to write an essay no matter how long it is, I call my mother 11 days before it is due, I tell her how I am not as clever as everyone else and I cant do it, then I cry, she then says "I can do it" and makes me promise I will finish it 4 days before it has to be in. I always finish it by her deadline.

My mother is my dyslexia tutor, I treat her like shit. I don't mean to. If I can't understand something I get angry, with her, its not her fault.

If you chat to me in chat, you may notice I take a long time to start chatting, its because I don't understand, I need to wait for a new topic.

You may realise I leave chat quickly, its because I don't understand or have lost my place, I get angry.

I treat my mum like shit, she became a teacher at 40 and found out I was Dyslexic when she was 50, she now a sort after tutor, I owe my career to her.

I can't take things back to the shop. Its out of fear of numbers. I am numerically dyslexic too.

Dyslexia isn't all about reading, writing and numbers.

If I get short changed or over priced in a shop, I have to go home and ask someone to count the change or add up the receipt. If I had coins and notes as change and I think it is wrong I will added it up over and over but not believe I am right, I will hold the change in my left hand till I find someone I can trust.

I cant hear the difference between P's and D's.

I have a short attention span even when Im trying.

I cannt read off white paper, I have Irlen syndrome.

My mother orders me new over lays so I can read every 5 week, I lose them because I have a bad memory.

When I am talking I will stop in the middle of a sentence, it might be because I have forgotten what I was going to say, or I cant pronouns a word.

I cant say "specific" I cant spell it either, the only way I got it right this time was by spelling Definite and fining a synonym, I couldnt spell Definite, I spelt it like this, defiante.

I am a walking thesaurus because I cant spell certain works so I have learnt easier words I can spell.

I cant ask for food in a restaurant.

I have learnt to hide my Disability well, they call the "coping mechanisms" I call them hiding in case I get it wrong.

I seem to "Zone out" or daydream often or I get lost easily or loses track of time.

I have extended hearing, I hear things not said or apparent to others and I am easily distracted by sounds.

I have a high tolerance to pain.

I have a strong sense of justice.

I have a high level of emotionally sensitivity

I strive for perfection, a lot of dyslexic people have other disorders, and mine is an ED.

Mistakes and symptoms increase dramatically with my confusion as well as time pressure, emotional stress or poor health.

I dont like eye contact.

I cant respond to people in authority.

I am light sleeper.

I am sensitive to foods.

I suffer from being compulsively orderly, if one thing goes wrong I cant continue with my day, I will just go through the emotions till I can start again the next day. (Addictive personality)

I have excellent long term memory, though I cant always remember the facts, I can recognise faces but cant remember names.

I have Poor memory for sequences, facts and information that has not been experienced.

I think mostly through images and feeling, not sounds or words. (talk to myself, I continuously have an internal dialogue)

If I could only pick once sense to keep it would be touch.

I am ambidextrous, and I often confuses my left/right and over/under.

Before I travel somewhere to do something new, (new course) I have to travel there 3 times before and walk to the room.

My brain works quicker than my speech and hands.

This is just some of the things that affect me because of dyslexia.