madscience

Ex sex. In a lot of ways, ex sex rocks. You know each other well, you know what works for each other. You havent seen each other in a while, and absence makes all sorts of body parts grow fonder. You know there are no strings attached, and it seems a bit naughty, both of which seem to make things even better. I had some amazing ex sex several months ago, and now hes back again, wanting another casual hook-up.

But heres the problem: I think I like him too much to have casual sex with him. The last time we had ex sex, we were both on the same page about it being a casual thing - there are a lot of things that dont work for us relationship-wise, been there, done that, dont want to revisit it. But I had a hard time with the emotional component after that ex sex encounter. I li-i-i-i-ike him. I dont want to marry him & have his babies or anything like that, but I want to hang out with him and have my way with him on a regular basis. And while Im doing that, he really doesnt need to be seeing other girls. I know, I know, have cake, eat it too, all based on unrealistic expectations.

So what to do now? God, I dunno. Butwaittheresmore, hes moving out of town, so this would be good-bye sex. On the one hand, Id love to see him and talk to him about what prompted this move and what hell be doing in the new location etc. Oh yeah, and have marathon mad sex with him, mmmmm. And since theres very little chance of me seeing him again, maybe I wont have those aforementioned unrealistic thoughts. BUT theres every possibility that this would be goddamn sad. Hes moving away! Good-byes suck. And I still li-i-i-i-ike him. Do I really think thats going to change just because theres little chance of seeing him again?? Yeah, right.

Alright, who am I kidding, we all know Im going to see him again. I want to see him one last time. You can just skip over the sad journal entry that Ill post after our encounter . . .