Well Crap! Might as well add "Confess Something" to this...
"I want to be pretty"
I knew I was never going to be a model, not only did modeling agencies, family, friends, boyfriends and frenemies tell me, but so did I.
I'm 4'10" awkward, oddly shaped, weird, and shy.... Insecure basically.
But I wanted to be pretty!!!! I couldn't change myself, who I was. I couldn't grow, I couldn't get boobs, lose my freckles, change my shape, etc. I wanted ME to be pretty. It was like asking the world to change! But I couldn't do that either...not little ol' me! Not by myself anyway.
I started getting tattooed at 15, piercings at 17, hung out with the stoners, and began to fall into place with my skin. Yeah, I'm sweet, cute, pleasant to the eye, interesting but in no case HOT!!! Not like a model out of Playboy, Easy Rider, or Elle!
Still I was something. I was going to prove it even if it was only to myself!
Eventually I worked as a promo girl for a local radio station, which lead to working for a popular Alternative Clothing Boutique. I not only was managing and going to conventions and seeing people like me but was being a Print and Ad model for the store and similar small projects. I was with models with dreads/ piercings/ and tattoos, where no matter your size you were still useful and considered a beauty of sorts.
This lead to more and more modeling until a photographer told me about a new site of models that I would be perfect for...once I laid my eyes on the models and got to know the community I fell in love!
We did it! We changed the world!
We can be pretty just being us!
Though I must confess the little ugly duckling still creeps in the shadows of my insecurity wishing to be pretty.
Some things you never grow out of ! Which is funny in its own way because I will never grow up! I still am a kid and pretty much look like one too!!! Lol!!
Xoxo
Love to you all! Look how far we have come! :)
