Last night my boyfriend and I got in a bad fight and he spitefully said "I had a skank I could have fucked today" So, I poured my beer over his head. My whole beer. I guess an old fuck buddy of his came to his work and threw herself at him. I know I shouldn't have reacted that way but it was my worst fear coming to life. I am so terrified that he's going to go have sex with someone else cause I can't have sex with him. No that I'm unable but that I'm humiliated about my body. I feel bad for him cause I am always feeling down mostly physically (aches and pains) and that seems to be taking a toll on our relationship. especially sexually. But he just doesn't understand how I see myself. Since I've gained all this weight I cry every time I look in the mirror. I know when he says he likes my body he's lying so he doesn't hurt my feelings. NO one could possibly be attracted to me now.
On top of that, I left my SG signed in and he read all my posts.
He's pissed. But I can see why. I have to not write blogs when I'm mad cause I exaggerate and really make him look like an asshole. *Sigh* 
On top of that, I left my SG signed in and he read all my posts.
He's pissed. But I can see why. I have to not write blogs when I'm mad cause I exaggerate and really make him look like an asshole. *Sigh* VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
mildots:
*hugs* I think he is telling the truth when he says he thinks your attractive.
foolish_hyena:
I honestly dont see you being anything but attractive, its not all about exterior looks the inside is just as important if not more, have you ever seen the man with two brains? Steve Martin has a good looking wife but he falls in love with a brain in a jar and dont want to ruin it for you but, umm i seem to have gone off on a tangent lost what I was going for.*thumbs through notes* watchout mr. kennedy? no that was decades ago... Oh! he had the yeast bath coming, shouldna have said that