A new poem for the same state of mind....
I lay here gasping for air...
I cant see what chokes me...
I don't really care...
Life is so full of shit!
Take for example how the smell of petafile brings back so many childhood memories... Or maybe how I'd rather eat rancid road kill, than spend one moment with my father...
My throbing wrist feels...
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I lay here gasping for air...
I cant see what chokes me...
I don't really care...
Life is so full of shit!
Take for example how the smell of petafile brings back so many childhood memories... Or maybe how I'd rather eat rancid road kill, than spend one moment with my father...
My throbing wrist feels...
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Am I just some little doll, for you to fuck and fondle?
Are my limbs tied to strings, so you can make me dance?
Do you know I have a mind inside, this sewn and bleeding head?
You keep me clenched in your hands, so I can not move or breath.
Strip me down and dress me up, to fit your selfish needs.
Brush my...
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Are my limbs tied to strings, so you can make me dance?
Do you know I have a mind inside, this sewn and bleeding head?
You keep me clenched in your hands, so I can not move or breath.
Strip me down and dress me up, to fit your selfish needs.
Brush my...
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dvsskunk:
I am in the army. I'm just not very artistic so I had to do something bland.
dvsskunk:
The services sure do fuck you over every chance they get don't they. Well except when its time to reenlist then you are the best damn soldier there ever was. My CO just asked me to renlist I pretty much told him to shove it up his ass. They couldn't afford me anymore.
"Better off selling oregano to twelve year olds" ha thats funny I am gonna have to use that one.
"Better off selling oregano to twelve year olds" ha thats funny I am gonna have to use that one.
I'm feeling better today. I bought a big bottle of sky vodka and watched "spun"
last night. My husband has realized at this point that he was wrong and now hes being all nice, well it doesn't undo the mental and verbal abuse I have sustained... I'm really broken hearted.
I didn't think marrage was supposed to be like this.....
last night. My husband has realized at this point that he was wrong and now hes being all nice, well it doesn't undo the mental and verbal abuse I have sustained... I'm really broken hearted.
I didn't think marrage was supposed to be like this.....
unknowntrigram:
Uummm... Heavy drinking, mental and emotional abuse, and marrage? What have I stumbled in on? Uuummm... welcome to the BCB. Hope everything is not as bad as it sounds.
thearcanecircle:
mariage shouldnt be like that all the time..but every now and then is fine...i soppose that could have been part of the prob in mine, we got along to well. We rarely fought. I dunno..Its good to see your working it out. In my opinion if it was good enough to do in the first place it should not even be a question as to weather or not you want to try to work it out..for a while at least...heres a shot of bicardi to you and your husband *drinks*
Life fucking blows!!!!!!!!!! I have nothing... I don't even know who I am anymore. I have no freedom, I'm not allowed to talk to other guys, My husband needs to know where I am and what I'm doing at all times!!!! I HATE MY LIFE.... 
thearcanecircle:
Sorry your feeling so down latly...i'v been in a relationship like that and it was know fun..She need to know everything and if she dint hear from me every single day she started freaking out and thinking i dint care anymore..which wasnt true, i cared about her a lot. But after a while i cound handle the constant nagging so i had to leave...Granted that was a highschool realationship...I hate to say this but most people i have known that where like that never seemed to care that the way they acted hurt the other person or where to shallow to listen when the other told em such...My suggeston would be a marrage counsler. Maybe they could talk some sence into him..Have you tried talking to him yourself? Even if he doesnt listen it was worth a try right? And if none of that works you can always bitch to me about it 
Tacoma has offically been named the most stessful city in the country to live in... Due to the high rates of suicide, divorce and alcoholism.... Tacoma is also where I live.... am I doomed????
I'm already an alcoholic.... not suicidal.... yet....
I'm already an alcoholic.... not suicidal.... yet....
thearcanecircle:
learn somthing new everyday heh..dont feel so bad, your not alone in a self destructed existance..i'm in exactly that same type of lifestyle about now..my ears are always open..
welcome2thedawn:
yeah that's what i heard...although i'm thinkin of moving back up that way...portland is really sucking for me right now...i accually enjoyed living in lakewood...
I need cigarettes..... I'm digging for change.... My husbands being an ass.
Story of my life....
Story of my life....
thearcanecircle:
cigarettes are bad for you..but i sopose i shouldnt talk, i do smoke cigars sometimes...
Today I have to go turn in a mile high stack of paperwork, which some how is supposed to get me out of debt. I have come to realize, in order to save money the Airforce takes volenteers from the local mental hospital to be in charge of our pay checks... hmmm... 
I have $8.00 in my checking account, and $0.00 in my savings... due...
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I have $8.00 in my checking account, and $0.00 in my savings... due...
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I'm considering fleeing the country....
My husband and I owe the Airforce 8,000 dollars...
Because they over payed us... Now we have to pay it back in one lump sum....
Canada or Mexico? drink absienth & smoke weed or blow cocaine & smuggle cigars.... I like cigars... absienth tastes like pee and dirt... cocaine is too expensive....I hate smoking weed.... I'm fucked... I might have...
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My husband and I owe the Airforce 8,000 dollars...
Because they over payed us... Now we have to pay it back in one lump sum....
Canada or Mexico? drink absienth & smoke weed or blow cocaine & smuggle cigars.... I like cigars... absienth tastes like pee and dirt... cocaine is too expensive....I hate smoking weed.... I'm fucked... I might have...
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thearcanecircle:
Wow..yeah i'v heard about that happening alot. The navy has a navy releif thing that will help, i bet the airforce has one too. I have almost had to use it myself and i have heard great things about it. Personaly i;d go to scotland or maybe greenland lol..they are beautiful..Cheer up and just keep moving. These sort of things will pass..
thearcanecircle:
Yeah i'm in a good mood for some reason...good luck on the package thing..anyways i'm off...barnes n nobles is calling me..
What do you think when you look at me?
What untrue life have you given to me?
Who, really do you think I am?
When I look at you, I try to see, past your paint and plaster.
To what you really must be.
I try to see past your glossy eyes and make my way to your carefully hidden lies.
But still I wonder......
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What untrue life have you given to me?
Who, really do you think I am?
When I look at you, I try to see, past your paint and plaster.
To what you really must be.
I try to see past your glossy eyes and make my way to your carefully hidden lies.
But still I wonder......
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welcome2thedawn:
hey...i used to live in lakewood. on washington blvd.
uhhh...i guwss i pushed submit twice. ooops..i'm a dork
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uhhh...i guwss i pushed submit twice. ooops..i'm a dork
[Edited on Jan 07, 2004 3:10PM]
welcome2thedawn:
hey...i used to live in lakewood. on washington blvd.
"My Sunset"
I sit upon a hillside, w/ all the world to see, as I look toward the sun shinning brightly over me.
An army of brillant colors battle for the right, to show off its glory before the coming night.
The sun is falling slowly in the light of day, as the dark angels drive the light angels away.
A soft glow shouts victory...
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I sit upon a hillside, w/ all the world to see, as I look toward the sun shinning brightly over me.
An army of brillant colors battle for the right, to show off its glory before the coming night.
The sun is falling slowly in the light of day, as the dark angels drive the light angels away.
A soft glow shouts victory...
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thearcanecircle:
thats vivid...i like it..does it have any hidden meaning for you? or do you just love the transitions between day and night like i do.
you have been through way too much at your young age.
i just wanted you to know that i have been through many of the same things you have. you are not alone. and i understand, at least somewhat, of how you feel.
your poem screams out for help.
please message me if you like.
or maybe joining the depression group on here would be helpful.