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cyanidegrin:
Sharp wheels -- getting a new car is always refreshing!
bang_bang:
sweet ride
My body is broken...
My heart is broken...
My will, my soul, my faith is broken...
I or whatever is left of me is broken...
Tiny shards, to small to see...
no glue, no tape or string will do...
I was once a tall pillar of shining glass,
delicate, translucent and beautiful...
so many times I have cracked and chipped... but found my peices and...
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cyanidegrin:
Just because you're not the same as before doesn't meen it's a bad thing -- learn from the past. Apply massive heat to the grains of sand and recylce yourself into what you are now.
Today I was told I have. "Gastroparesis Diabeticourm" It is the inability to absorb nutrients from food. The long term affects are the need of a stomach feeding tube for vitamins and IVs for fluids. I don't believe I am hearing this.
The disease is a complication of Diabetes and cause life is a bitch makes Diabetes basically impossible to control.
Tomorrow I have about...
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The disease is a complication of Diabetes and cause life is a bitch makes Diabetes basically impossible to control.
Tomorrow I have about...
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madi:
I was going to the hospital and I wasn't suppposed to drive. My husband lost his lisense because of a DUI and a $700.00 speeding ticket. No the guys my husbands best friend and I'd ruin ther relationship. Even though he should pay for every cent.
About the tests I'm immune to insulin. And all the little things in your stomach that absorb vitamins and such arn't. Thats as simple as i can put it.
About the tests I'm immune to insulin. And all the little things in your stomach that absorb vitamins and such arn't. Thats as simple as i can put it.
demonbuttercup:
You will make it.
When life throws you lemons.....
Won't you be getting some cool drugs?
I am trying to take your mind off it for a few seconds. Dunno if my attempt even works, but my thoughts are with you. And who said athiests are uncaring bastards?!!
oxoxoxoxox
When life throws you lemons.....
Won't you be getting some cool drugs?
I am trying to take your mind off it for a few seconds. Dunno if my attempt even works, but my thoughts are with you. And who said athiests are uncaring bastards?!!
oxoxoxoxox
I'm back to the normal routine. I forgot how boring laundry and dishes are. I'm going to go look for a job soon. I'm not looking forward to that. I stopped drinking for the most part. I've been having a glass of wine every night. Opposed to a 12 pack and a pint of vodka. I actually feel worse generally.
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z_x_silas:
yeah i might have to stop drinking too, because last friday... well i don't remember but there are pictures of me eating cigarets and i don't even smoke, sick huh? the worst part is that i had to catch a plane the next day and i 
all over a payphone. well those are kinda two completly different reasons oh well have a nice day 
all over a payphone. well those are kinda two completly different reasons oh well have a nice day 
thearcanecircle:
Thanks for the reply in my journal. I guess we do agree on certain things huh? Anyways..It makes me smile to know there someone out there who still has at least a couple feelings left.
I'm home. The trip sucked bad. Story of my life.
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thearcanecircle:
your home! welcome back homie heh...sorry bout your trip being all crappy..i'l email yah somtime soon prob..
[Edited on Feb 25, 2004 8:14PM]
[Edited on Feb 25, 2004 8:14PM]
bang_bang:
i hate shitty trips...last one i was on i got locked up 
I'M LEAVING TONIGHT. GOING HOME FOR A WEEK. I'M SO STRESSED. I HATE PLANES, I HAVE THIS FEELING I'M GOING TO FORGET SOMETHING. THAT SOUND PRETTY TYPICAL. I BET ALOT OF PEOPLE GET TRAVELING ANXIETY. IF IT WASN'T 3000 MILES AWAY I'D DRIVE. I DROVE HERE THE FIRST TIME. THAT WAS AN EXPERIENCE. WELL, WISH ME LUCK. XOXO...
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bang_bang:
HI
tattva:
I'm from Naugatuck originally as well....what's up
I've been thinking. But I'm always thinking, my mind never turns off.
Well, I came up with some ramblings...
Dark hearts hide dark secrets
Mysteries untold are all we are
A soul can be lost
A heart can be broken
True love never found
The brightest light meerly hides the deepest darkness
Hope is but a mirage we created
Well, I came up with some ramblings...
Dark hearts hide dark secrets
Mysteries untold are all we are
A soul can be lost
A heart can be broken
True love never found
The brightest light meerly hides the deepest darkness
Hope is but a mirage we created
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thearcanecircle:
wow..i would like to see this expanded upon..
demonbuttercup:
Have fun in CT.
And no. You don't need ANYONE'S permission to put photos up ANYWHERE. Sorry...that husband seems to relish such an antiquated and unequal vibe.
You GO! you be yourself, happy, content, and independent.
Cheers!
And no. You don't need ANYONE'S permission to put photos up ANYWHERE. Sorry...that husband seems to relish such an antiquated and unequal vibe.
You GO! you be yourself, happy, content, and independent.
Cheers!
I spent a few hours packing today. I'm going home really soon. I just can't wait.
I want my friend back home to take some pictures of me so I can post em' on SG's hopefuls. I need clearance from my hubby first. Or do I ? ha...ha...ha..
Well we will see. I'm supposed to do something very bad tonight. I'll just say I'm expecting...
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I want my friend back home to take some pictures of me so I can post em' on SG's hopefuls. I need clearance from my hubby first. Or do I ? ha...ha...ha..
Well we will see. I'm supposed to do something very bad tonight. I'll just say I'm expecting...
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thearcanecircle:
Hope you enjoy your trip home..and the snow heh..I agree your poem was good..its was though provoking too which i like very much...
cecibear143:
do what you want. you don't need clearance from n e one except your own concience. I really hope everything works out for you. You better believe that if I was in your situation I would have burned all of my husbands belonings by now. But that's probably a bad idea. Do what makes you happy.
"oink-oink" I'm going to be fat. I've been funneling buds all day. At least I'm feeling good. I had court today. Got off w/ a $50. fine.
Ironically enough I was arrested for under age drinking. They can't stop me.
ha..ha...ha... evil laugh. I have a blister on my finger from opening so many beers. I have an ear infection.
I'd rather be physcally sick...
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mr_ruckus:
Aaah,underage binge drinking!
Good old days!!!!
Good old days!!!!
demonbuttercup:
You aren't a loser - it's called living and learning. You live your life the way you need to. Things don't change over night, although yeah, some things do.
Stay patient and enjoy a camel. I need a parliament, myself...All day, a friend just kept bringing me down with what I do that is wrong or whatever (whatever is RIGHT!). I'm damn near 33: You never get too old not to out yourself thru shit; once you see things for what they are, you get the strength to move on. It takes time.
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Stay patient and enjoy a camel. I need a parliament, myself...All day, a friend just kept bringing me down with what I do that is wrong or whatever (whatever is RIGHT!). I'm damn near 33: You never get too old not to out yourself thru shit; once you see things for what they are, you get the strength to move on. It takes time.
[Edited on Feb 13, 2004 3:00PM]
I slept well for the first time in almost a year last night. I drank 5 twisted smirnoffs, and took a pain killer. I had a whole night ful of sex dreams. I didn't want to wake up. My husband is being good to me. He's been letting me sleep in alittle and not being rude to me. Maybe thats why I slept good. ?...
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mohollyweird:
just sent you a note....
hunts4grooves2:
Just Moved from CT. eh?.......good move......this place is too expensive anyway........and congrats on the booze filled sex dreams....those are always welcomed.....i watched like 4 episodes of the sopranos the other night and had al weird mobster dreams.....that weren't nearly as good as sex dreams....but I take what i can get.......
Nice to hear from an old Ct-er.....
be good
Nice to hear from an old Ct-er.....
be good
I was supposed to go to court today for an minor in possseion of alcohol charge. But I didn't go. I don't care very much abot anything right now. I'm going home on feb 17th and I don't know If I'll come back to my husband. I need to do some thinking. I need to see if its all worth it. I'm so depressed. I...
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I feel much better today. I'm having an ice pop for breakfast. I'm pretty poor. But thats not a big deal right now. I feel like I may actually be finding myself again, something I thought was hopeless.
I'm going to re-pierce my nose and go back to my natural hair color, Fire engine red! I don't care if my husband thinks I look like...
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I'm going to re-pierce my nose and go back to my natural hair color, Fire engine red! I don't care if my husband thinks I look like...
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delilla:
and your art is awsome, good luck with that
mr_ruckus:
Do you. Be you. Stay you and true!