Okay, things are much better. I was having a few down days. I've spent the past few days trying to find a new apartment. My roomates are planning to have us evicted. I'm not sure how but I found a letter from the guy in jail and it was fucked up shit. I figure cover my ass now so we can't be fucked later. I'll...
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akathisia:
hello.
z_x_silas:
hi 
Call it what you what to call it... I"m a fuckin alcoholic...
And my past journal was shit. I've done much more that that.
I hate my life but its up to me to change it. <-- no self pity.
And my past journal was shit. I've done much more that that.
I hate my life but its up to me to change it. <-- no self pity.
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rubyred:
take it you slipped again??
hellsforheroes:
just run away forever, that's my plan
Things are better... or the smoke screen is thick. I've basically got drunk and watch TV every night for the past two years.. Is this as pathetic as it sounds???
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zahara:
You mean you actually found something worth watching on TV for two years? You must have been drunk! 
hellsforheroes:
I had sex with a cathode ray tube once...so technically I had sex with a vacuum...but not that kind...wow, I am impressed by myself...oh hi madi...how are you doing
Okay., hives went away. I am drunk as shit and I hate my life. lol... okay I am telling the truth. So sad for me anyway..
I'll update when I'm not fucked up....
I'll update when I'm not fucked up....
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hotcurry:
Thank you so very much. I just sent you an email. 
rubyred:
hey you, hear youre back in the dumps again? well this time i can join you. just had $1000 stolen from my room. i know i was fuckstick for leaving it there, guess i trust ppl too much. so not happy. how the fuck am i to get to italy in 8 wks now i have nothing??
I have hives. I think its a food allergy. ? I feel fine, actually good. Just kinda blotchy and red. 
<-- that stands for hives today...
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basketcase:
Bummer 
akirali:
Ouch! I'm sorry. Any idea what food specifically?
I have to brutally honest... I slipped back into my old lifestyle. I don't like to give detail. I know I can overcome this. I went to a chat room looking for help and they ganged up one me and kicked me out. I don't understand this. I would do anything to help someone in need. I know I'm a pity whore. I don't get...
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coops:
Hey-
No need for the thanks...thats what we are all here for!
I'm just glad that I have people to talk to that have gone through the same shit that I have....it's nice to know that you're not the only one, you know?
Hang in there...
And yes, you are very cute!
No need for the thanks...thats what we are all here for!
I'm just glad that I have people to talk to that have gone through the same shit that I have....it's nice to know that you're not the only one, you know?
Hang in there...
And yes, you are very cute!
thearcanecircle:
I'm here when ever you need me. Just ask. We could talk on the phone or maybe even finaly meet somewhere for coffe seeing as your man seems to understand i'm no threat..I cant say i'v been there, but i know a lot of people who have and i have an opne ear to boot.,
I guess the concert was good. He came home w/ a split lip and a broken knuckle. He was a bouncer right in front of the stage. I guess the guys fron "the used" were making out. Sorry I missed that. I'm hung over in the strangest way. eh? 
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anaphalaxis:
Now that's something I'd pay to see! Or maybe I'll just get the tequila instead. Only problem with that plan is I'm likely to drink it before any girl on girl action is given the chance of fruition!
thehighestpower:
hangovers rock 
Franks at the "taste of chaos" concert. I really wanted to go. Oh, well. He'll be home at midnight or so, depending on what he decides to do after. So I'm alone, for the first time in months. I should get nekkid and dance to Cindi Lauper!!!! VIEW 8 of 8 COMMENTS
rubyred:
you sound fun
fallfromgrace:
thanks for the birthday wishes!
Well the party was okay. I got in a fight w/ my husband cause he said he didn't want to drink and he would drive. So I asked before I even got a drink if he was sure. He said yeah no problem.. blah... blah...blah. So every sip I took of my drink he was scoffing at me. I was so annoyed after a while...
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elektra_descends:
That is not playing nice talking to you when you are intoxicated.
How are you supposed to defend yourself?
Stand up for yourself and stay healthy!
Your drinking problem is quite possibly because of his actions and your reactions to them.
If he suggests you get help. He should get help as well.
Everything is cause and effect.
How are you supposed to defend yourself?
Stand up for yourself and stay healthy!
Your drinking problem is quite possibly because of his actions and your reactions to them.
If he suggests you get help. He should get help as well.
Everything is cause and effect.
thehighestpower:
every party has a pooper......
Well, I'm over my sake hangover. I'm going back to that house tommorow for a birthday party. I'll try to borrow the digi cam to capture some girly action. I never know when these things are going to happen. My husband thinks I'm god now cause both those girl were "straight laced churchies" as he called them. Yeah, I wish I had photographic evidence. I...
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thearcanecircle:
wass ekking at the girly action, but we dont need to comment on there...i'll just leave it at the fact that i'm a guy...Yeah its good he finally realized I wouldnt never try to get inbetween to married people...
I took some pictures of myself today. Trying to be sexy, as soon as I figure out how to shrink them, I'll put them up. I'm going out w/ some friends for sushi and sake. *where's the pepto* It will be nice to eat w/ out cooking and leave the mess behind.
:update: Too much sake.
But I got to make out w/ two hot...
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:update: Too much sake.
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zahara:
I like your profile pic. The light coming from behind you really sets the mood.
hellsforheroes:
I'll wash away your sins...if only the ocean were deeper
I took some pictures of myself today. Trying to be sexy, as soon as I figure out how to shrink them, I'll put them up. I'm going out w/ some friends for sushi and sake. *where's the pepto* It will be nice to eat w/ out cooking and leave the mess behind.
:update: Too much sake. But I got to make out w/ two hot...
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:update: Too much sake.
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slamcage:
sushi or 'sushi'?
zahara:
Somehow I doubt you have to put much effort into being sexy.