madhat6

All right so I've decided to really be myself on here.I hate the midwest! I dont want to live here. I dont want to be like most everyone around here.Columbia isnt a bad place,dont get me wrong.Its better than most but I want to live on the east or west coast.My son is fourteen and when he's out of highschool I'm outta here.He's going to college someplace probably out of state anyway. I love my family and would miss all my friends but I need something diferent.I'm not saying I lie about who I am I just keep it to myself. I,m not into religion which is preety big around here to most, or a least a lot of the people I have to deal with.I used to find myself feeling bad about stuff that I dont think I should even.If that makes any sense.Its because of my surroundings how Ive been raised.What other people think.Its not a bad thing, my parents are great.Its just that I want to experiance diferent things that I dont feel like I will around here.I'm trying to give my boy a chance to.A lot of it is that I have a son. I'm afraid that he wouldnt have as good a chance and the opertunity to make his own decisions about his life if I was to live a lifestyle more like what I would like.Its worth the wait!!!! Its not like I'm going to completely change how I live. I dont know how to explain it.Damn it Im at work and need to get some done so I'll write more later.