maddy

hmm don't know really what to say

i know where i may be headed mentally, i have my phases and i am doing my best to fight oncoming depression. so far i am staying strong.

fuck car insurance....they are billing me 1100 when i just gave them 800 2 months ago. they raised to by 400 dollars and want it a month early. i hate them and they should die.

i am still making my bracelets because i never grow up in some ways. i am going to make a bright pink one for MonkeyTail

i keep having weird dreams again. like the one i had the other night all kill bill style. i was in a room with 3 people and i killed them one at a time in a fight. at least they weren't people i know.

i suddenly want to be a fashion designer. i used to hate fashion but now i have become addicted to it. keep in mind i could care less about current fashion trends, they are stupid. but i would like to create my own. and i think the high fashion clothes look weirder than anything you could buy in hot topic. i just need to learn how to sew better. that is why me and melly need to take those sewing classes.

so many creative things i need to do but i have no motivation.

i am going to go string up some little children, quarter them and then put their remains in Melly's teddy bears. muwahahahha

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POLL: the door knob turning by the stairs (that i am guessing leads to the other apartment), old crazy people with alzheimers or poltergeist?

keep in mind this happens once or twice a day.