maddy

doom doom doom doom

i felt inspired today, haven't felt that way in a long time...i wrote a poem like thing that i am going to turn into a small book. i thought of what to get my 3 mommy's for mothers day...i am going to make it.

i want to start making more art and selling it. maybe i should get a website or something, except i know nothing about that.

i got 2 books today for 8 bucks a piece. they are hardcover books, one about dali and the other about van gogh. they seem to have tons of paintings in them. i couldn't pass up that deal.

i will put up some pics from ny soon, i am just lazy. and i still haven't really gotten back to anyone cause i suck...so extra to everyone.

and for the rant...

i don't understand why i still matter to you. i hate to think that i am the source of your love/hate. i hope that what i suspect is not true.
i remember when i graduated all i could think of was good bye cliques. sure i'll have some problems, but not like high school. fuck it seems like high school every where i turn around in everyday life. join our side, we are the right ones. if you want to be kewl, you have to hate who we hate. brainless people that can't think for themselves. maybe there is a reason why i did what i did...maybe you can see that now. i have better things to do then sit around all day and talk shit. i am trying to better myself and educate myself even tho i can't go to skewl right now, and right now i am in a way better position and doing way better things. it makes me sad. really sad. cause i know how sad you are.
and you need to quit fucking things up. i am going to beat your face in if you screw this up. and i sense the face beating coming.
and if you read this and think 'hey i bet she is talking about me' and get angry, then you are stupid because it isn't about you. egos.

and if i die, i want my people to bury me...in MASH POTATOS!!



***pics from ny up now**