I've been reading a lot of blogs recently. This one should have been updated before now. Maybe partying will help? I have all these unfinished thoughts, like fragments of songs scattered about, looking to be pieced together. Rather than digest large stories I've been taking in a lot of little ones. Part of it is an attempt to sound more positive. At least I'm taking action rather than simply sounding better; last weekend, I let go. I let go of a ton of bullshit I've been carrying around. For good. I wrote it down. I really needed it.
I've fallen into the startup trap again. It's been two weeks of hell (with another two in front of me).
Phase 1: Bend over for customer to get a good name for yourself.
Phase 3: Profit.
Maybe that's why the gnomes were collecting underpants. It never hurts to have some extra pairs around after all that bending over. The thing is, I don't really know another way. My ceiling was set from the start at IBM. With StorePerform, I weaseled my way in on a six month contract hookup from a friend. The CTO wanted nothing to do with me. I busted arse and disappeared for a while, then once I had a good name and shit in order I laid back.
It feels really similar here. I can dive into the role and cut five years of experience down to two. I'm fine with it though, I see the big picture. Most people sacrifice what they want for what they want now. I did a fair amount of that when I was in school. Fuggit. That's what college is all about, right? I still feel like I'm a couple of steps behind... like I should have a 401k in place of this credit card debt, or I should be a lead dev by now. Still, I'm within months of being the youngest guy in the company, and well on my way to tackling the title of lead. or Senior. I kind of like the sound of seor developer... which is yet another vote in the Barcelona in the future.
I've fallen into the startup trap again. It's been two weeks of hell (with another two in front of me).
Phase 1: Bend over for customer to get a good name for yourself.
Phase 3: Profit.
Maybe that's why the gnomes were collecting underpants. It never hurts to have some extra pairs around after all that bending over. The thing is, I don't really know another way. My ceiling was set from the start at IBM. With StorePerform, I weaseled my way in on a six month contract hookup from a friend. The CTO wanted nothing to do with me. I busted arse and disappeared for a while, then once I had a good name and shit in order I laid back.
It feels really similar here. I can dive into the role and cut five years of experience down to two. I'm fine with it though, I see the big picture. Most people sacrifice what they want for what they want now. I did a fair amount of that when I was in school. Fuggit. That's what college is all about, right? I still feel like I'm a couple of steps behind... like I should have a 401k in place of this credit card debt, or I should be a lead dev by now. Still, I'm within months of being the youngest guy in the company, and well on my way to tackling the title of lead. or Senior. I kind of like the sound of seor developer... which is yet another vote in the Barcelona in the future.
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i threw a lot away! it felt so good!
i'm sending over some of it but selling most of it.
i don't plan on coming back this way anytime in the near or far future.
the beer is damn good! i'm going on a beer mission tomorrow!
As for your advice, I am working a weekend job, this is extra, and if I need to get something during the week days, on top of this, I just might, I have no furniture still, no real place of my own.
I'm working on something big, I want TOP!