Currently listening to: Red Hot Chili Peppers "Under the Bridge"
Ever feel like we ARE living in the world of darkness? Everyday I wake up my eyes are covered by a film of gray, darker acts seem to phase us less as we are desinsitized to the crimes and vices around us... I guess you could say I had a bad day. I guess you could say Ive been pretty morbid lately, hell Ive been jaded for several months.
Last night I had a really shitty date, She came and picked me up and all she did was whine and bitch all night. She wanted to go to the beach, she bitched and complained all the way down there, whined and bitched because the twenty so yards of walking on the sand was going to make her sore. glad I got home at like 12 or so.
Didnt wake up to go to the range today which was a bummer but was woken up by a bad dream... and no it didnt envolve sharks. wasnt really bad par se. The contents of the dream were inocent that I remember... pretty much all I remember was a certain cast member whome haunts me.
So I was supposed to wake up at at least 8 o'clock, I kept hitting the snooze and tried to get more sleep and was dirfing out even though I knew I was going to be really late for work. Thats when the earthquake chucked me out of bed. Woke up to the shades of gray the world greets me with and headed out to work. Long day and alot of stupid people later I get to go home after talking with the guys in the parkinglot for an hour or so and when I got home, started up my comp and my messangers.
This one should make you laugh, My ex gf's friend and I have been talking, bad idea I know, we've met twice and talked on the internet and im really fucking guilty of flirting. Well she wants to know how much I LIKE her. Ive I would be with her 24/7, if I wanted her to be my girlfriend... HOLY SHITBALLS! I only met her twice! WHISKEY TANGO FOXTROT!
What happened to me? What have I become in my life? I feel I really am a piece of shit and miss my old self in some aspects. I hate though how naive I used to be and blind to obvious things around me. I hate the mistakes I made but I will survive, I always do. Im just so damned jaded now I put up a shield around me and even chased some friends away.
Ive been thinking alot about celest lately. Its been a little after a year since she has died... I wish she was here still
night all.
Ever feel like we ARE living in the world of darkness? Everyday I wake up my eyes are covered by a film of gray, darker acts seem to phase us less as we are desinsitized to the crimes and vices around us... I guess you could say I had a bad day. I guess you could say Ive been pretty morbid lately, hell Ive been jaded for several months.
Last night I had a really shitty date, She came and picked me up and all she did was whine and bitch all night. She wanted to go to the beach, she bitched and complained all the way down there, whined and bitched because the twenty so yards of walking on the sand was going to make her sore. glad I got home at like 12 or so.
Didnt wake up to go to the range today which was a bummer but was woken up by a bad dream... and no it didnt envolve sharks. wasnt really bad par se. The contents of the dream were inocent that I remember... pretty much all I remember was a certain cast member whome haunts me.
So I was supposed to wake up at at least 8 o'clock, I kept hitting the snooze and tried to get more sleep and was dirfing out even though I knew I was going to be really late for work. Thats when the earthquake chucked me out of bed. Woke up to the shades of gray the world greets me with and headed out to work. Long day and alot of stupid people later I get to go home after talking with the guys in the parkinglot for an hour or so and when I got home, started up my comp and my messangers.
This one should make you laugh, My ex gf's friend and I have been talking, bad idea I know, we've met twice and talked on the internet and im really fucking guilty of flirting. Well she wants to know how much I LIKE her. Ive I would be with her 24/7, if I wanted her to be my girlfriend... HOLY SHITBALLS! I only met her twice! WHISKEY TANGO FOXTROT!
What happened to me? What have I become in my life? I feel I really am a piece of shit and miss my old self in some aspects. I hate though how naive I used to be and blind to obvious things around me. I hate the mistakes I made but I will survive, I always do. Im just so damned jaded now I put up a shield around me and even chased some friends away.
Ive been thinking alot about celest lately. Its been a little after a year since she has died... I wish she was here still
night all.
chi:
Thanks for the info on the piercer. My roomates originally from here so she knows some places too. I just dont want to drive back down to Lomita for it all.