maddie

ten wishes

i wish i had confidence in myself

i wish my family was happy and well x

i wish my parents won the lottery so they could get the best care for my pappie and go and see the world and live their dreams x

i wish i was a good girlfriend and didnt feel like such a burden to him x

i wish i was slim and beautiful

i wish i had lots of close friends that cared

i wish i was clever

i wish people would see that we are destroying the world and to realise that we just live on it, it is not ours to destroy

i wish i had motivation and determination

i wish for people to let their good sides overrule their bad, the world would be so much better

these ten wishes were just written for completely randomness, ive got so much going on in my head and i dont no how to vent it, sometimes i just wana write and write my mind onto these blogs but everytime i attempt it, i never no where to start, theres just too much

i feel so lost, so empty and so dissapointed
i dont no what i want to do with my life actually no thats bullshit, i wana work in science but im so terrified i will fail because Of how much i suffer from anxiety and stress, and the fact that im just not that bright
i love my singing, i love being on stage and people coming up to me asking me to sing, its amazing, but
its just eugh theres something missing

i fucking wish that everything would just sort itself out in my head, but i no that i, alone have to do that

im so dissapointed in the human race and its an awful feeling, no offence to anyone at all as i am also human, damnit! haha but i just want so many people to see the world threw my eyes, i cant stand to look at builders working on countryside, it makes my blood boil, what fucking right do they have to take away homes for animals and just the plain beauty, arent there enough fucking cities already!
we are just an infection to this world, day by day, taking away a little bit more of the beauty that once was, and when weve taken everything we can, we will find away to go to another planet and suck all of the life out of that, just like a plague

Obviously there are definately the good people in this world that do their best and try as hard as possible to be good to the planet but some, gah, the fucking government, for example, are you really that thick?! id do such a better job and i think england would turn into a hippy country, which would be awesome

i just dont understand how people can not just LOOK LISTEN and ADORE




seriously HOW?! i just wish everyone will look with their hearts and see the beauty, it actually makes me cry haha
one day i will be rich and buy as much as i can of every rainforest, so noone can touch it and it can stay beautiful and preserved x

im sorry for this massive blog, its only the tip of the iceburg of all the things that are going on in my head just needed to vent a little bit and sorry if i offended anyone x

anyone know what i should do with my life using facts from this lengthy blog??!!!! advice would be most helpful!

xxx